Brave enough

Cap. 10: Don't let this feeling fade

I walk down the street to reach the bus stop. I know I have to ask Susy about her date with Nik. It's not the right moment to be jealous!

Me: "Hey Su!"

Susan: "Hey you!"

Me: "Everything fine?"

Susan: "Yup"

Me: "Are you sure, you seem sad..."

Susan: "Yeah, yeah..."

Me: "The date with Nik didn't go as expected?"

Too happy tone, too happy you jealous bitch

Susan: "Oh no, the date went perfect, I just had struggle sleeping knowing I have to see him today at school"

Wonderful...*facepalm*

Me: "Too excited?"

Susan: "Yup! I think I can vomit if I try eat something"

Me: "Uwu, you have to tell me everything!"

You jealous! We walk on the bus and seat together near the window. Fortunately, we are not facing each other.

Susan: "Ok then, he arrived at the park at 3 p.m. and he was beautiful he was wearing a shirt! He told me that was because of the role he wanted to audition, but I think it was for me...maybe it's stupid"

Yeah, just maybe

Me: "Naaaa, go on"

Smooth liar

Susan: "Then we tried our lines and seemed like we had been practicing the script for years!"

Me: "Niceee, you will surely have the part! Nothing on my outfit?"

Susan: "Oh yeah baby he looked at me before walking back home and said 'nice sweater'! I know it's not that much, but hey he noticed I was dressing nice!"

Me: "It sound amazing Su, I'm so happy for you"

Happy, sure, not jealous, you liar!

Susan: "And I didn't tell you the best part: he invited me to his house next Sunday to try our lines again and he told me to bring the dress I want to wear for the audition!"

Me: "Woah that's supercool!"

No, it's not! It hurts

Susan: "I know! Thank you for helping me out"

Me: "Ah don't thank me I'm only the artist you're the art!"

Susan: "Ok, then will Michelangelo help me again?"

Me: "Sure my muse!"

Do I want to help her again? I have to, she is on the perfect way to bring Nik away from me but I have to...I'm so fucked!

We walk in the class waiting for the teacher to come in. I can see a blue-green envelope on my desk. Fuck another message form Nik, wrong timing!

Susan: "What's that?"

Me: "Oh a message from the boy invited me to the prom I guess..."

I say too quickly to cover the fact that the blue-green colour is appearing too often lately

Susan: "Oh come on open it!"

Me: "Gimme a second!"

Yeah, just for checking he didn't sigh the message so that you won't choke me instantly. I open the envelope and gently I slide out the little paper in it.

Susan: "What does it say? Tell me tell me!!!"

Me: "Let me read it!"

"Thinking about you and your blue-green earrings, looking forward to our next date"

Few nothing incriminator. I give the little paper to Susy so that she can read it. How cute, using his time just to make sure I know he thinks about me...STOP IT!

Susan: "Wow he is so cute! Wait you told me he was nothing special and was just a random boy from another school...I knew I messed up, I just hope you will be ready to tell me one day about him"

She says with a defeated tone...I'm the absolute worst. I'm making her worry when it's me who's robbing her of her man

Me: "Sure Susy...but trust me he misunderstood; I'll text him later"

Susan: "I think you're not telling me the truth but hey I can understand, when you will be ready!"

Fuck I forgot how well she can read me sometimes

Me: "Thanks Susy, but trust me it's not you it's just that everything in this is new for me and I don't want to run to my best friend every time I'm struggling because yeah you will be always there for me but, he wants to date me not you..."

Susan: "And making everything I tell you to do it's like he is dating me, I get it"

Good girl, why now don't you understand that I dressed you as Nik liked because he is dating me and I wanted him to like you? Because it would have been too easy!

Me: "Exactly"

Susan: "But hey if you need something you know where to find me!"

Me: "Same you crazy!"

The teacher walks in, time for history.

We walk in the garden for the lunch break and make our way to our bench. I sit down facing Susan, and we talk happily. I see Nik approaching us from the end of the garden. Fuck!

Me: "I have to go to the restroom"

Susan: "I'll come with you"

Me: "It's not necessary I just have you know to change the..."

Susan: "Oh, ok. Are you sure?"

Me: "Sure"

I walk fast to reach the corner of the building from where I can listen and they don't see me.

Nik: "Hey Susan, where did your friend go?"

Susan: "To the restroom, did you need something?"

Nik: "Oh nothing important"

Susan: "Well it's good to see you"

Nik: "It's good to see you too"

Why do you have to be this awkward Susan?!

Susan: "Do you want to join us for the rest of the lunch break?"

Nik: "Oh no I have to go, but thank you, maybe next time?"

Susan: "For sure!"

Nik: "Bye!"

Susan: "Bye!"

Few he didn't mention the envelope! I walk back to Susan and sit next to her. I don't know if I can handle this.

Susan: "Tell me the truth"

I'm fucking dating him? Shut up! Let her speak first

Susan: "You saw him coming and you let me be alone with him, right?"

Not exactly but thanks for the easy excuse

Me: "Duh?"

Susan: "You know you are the best?"

Me: "😉"

Ok now I can chill, she didn't understand!

I walk home from the bus stop and head in my room. I take the blue-green envelope and plug my earphones. "Don't let this feeling fade". Click. I don't want the excitement for the envelope to fade but I have to, maybe just this song...