Little Talks ||Tyunning Story||

2

Two days later

Kai's pov

Me and Taehyun are at the altar hand in hand, he has a beautiful black suit, his hair are black with a little undercut, while I have a pure white lobster suit with some silver gems on, my hair are a bit long and wavy, he also has a white rose in his pocket.
Two beautiful matching rings on our ring fingers.
I can't believe we are married now! That is the best day of my life, I'm loving every detail of it!
Everything is so bright and joyful, I see pinkish and white petals all around, his eyes shine like stars.
We'll finally live the life of our dreams and everything is so beautiful, he's my husband, oh god... I can't believe he's actually my husband!
We've come so far and this is the cherry on top, it's just perfect, everything is perfect till the last minute detail.
And Taehyun? Well he's the most beautiful I've ever seen, he also has a bit of make up on, like I do... but of course he's way better than me, he's tearing up and I smile loving this fairly and fresh atmosphere.
"You're gorgeous" I whisper.
<<You look like an angel>> He whispers back and I'm getting more convinced that his voice is the only sound I want to hear for the rest of my life
"With the powers vested in me I declare you both husbands! You can kiss your groom Kai"
We kiss, holding each other tightly, like everything could disappear in any moment this is beautiful, just beautiful.
"Kai-ya! Hey Hueningie!" I hear Soobin like a whisper in the distance.
But I only look at the crowd hand in hand with my husband.
"Kai! Wake up! Kai!" I feel my body shaken and I listlessly open my eyes, I look at Soobin confused.
I take a second look at him and I see he's all dressed up in black... Then I remember everything that happened in just a week... It was just a dream.
I cry right away knowing today is Taehyun's funeral.
"What were you dreaming about? You seemed so happy!" Says Soobin.
"Marring Taehyun... Like it was supposed to be" I say between my tears.
He pets my head and my back.
"I think that if it was Yeonjun to pass away I would react the same and I would dream about our wedding everyday... I don't know your pain, but I can understand it, it would destroy me... Anyway we have to hurry and prepare now, go wash up and I make breakfast" He says and I nod getting up from bed and getting ready for another empty, sharp day without my boyfriend by my side.

After half an hour I'm ready with a black suit and a black coat, I want to be perfect for the last day his spirt will be with us.
My friends takes me to the place of the ceremony, I look around and there's my family, some of our classmates and his sister with her boyfriend... No one of his family showed up except his sister and her boyfriend, I hate them so much, he could still be with us if they didn't do what they did.
That's all their fault and for god's sake I can't wait to make them pay for what they've done!
The ceremonial shows up and starts with his speech for this dark day.
"Today we are gathered here to commemorate Taehyun's too early departure... A joyful, passionate boy whose life had been shattered at only 17 by his family... And his only sin? Loving his forever best friend, that friend he should've married next year. Today we'll say goodbye to a friend, a brother, a son-in-law, the love of a life, a person who's existence was a gift for anyone who met him... Although death is a tragic event in everyone's life, an end for the person taken, it's never really the end... It can be a beginning for a rebirth in a better life, a better place where all your pains are canceled and the only thing you'll ever feel is happiness all around... Although it's hard to move on in front of such a young torn life, I know that that boy wants all of us to smile and be happy with him, so please raise your spirits be happy for him and he'll enjoy and give you strength in every moment of your lives"

I'm not really paying attention to the ceremonial's words, I'm only staring at that damned coffin where the rests of his body are placed... It's been five days and every time I open my eyes, he's not with me and I cannot help but cry... I spend the most of time sleeping only to stay with him for a little more, so he'll be alive with me... I can only see him in my dreams now.
"He had all his life in front of him... I can't believe he throw it all away" I hear his sister's boyfriend say.
"He always risked everything for this boy... I should have took him away from that house... We wouldn't be here crying his death, it's my parents fault, not his" Says the sister.
"A few words from the closest people of this young soul" Says the ceremonial making place for Taehyun's sister.
"Hi everyone... for the few who don't know I'm Taehyun's older sister, Seohyun... If I have to be honest I'm ashamed being part of the family that tortured and led this poor boy to his death, I always tried to protect him and help him and I feel guilty knowing I could have done more if I wasn't scared of my family disowning me... I could prevent this from happening, yet I haven't done anything, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for everything I haven't done, please forgive me little brother, please forgive me Kai" She looks at me crying and I nod her giving her my forgiveness, I know she tried everything, there's no need to add other pain to hers... I lost the love of my life, she lost her little brother... our pain is just the same and it's consuming us both.
Then Soobin and Yeonjun started their speech, they're hugged, one sustaining the other, Yeonjun is crying again and Soobin was tearing up too, those black coats makes the couple even more desperate than what they already are.
"Taehyun was my bestest friend, he always listened to me, he always helped me without any doubt... He was the second youngest in our group of friends but he was so open and wise that he seemed the oldest, I saw him grow up with me and struggle with his parents, his sorrow everyday... He accepted me and supported me and loved me without judging, not even once... he's the nicest person I've ever met, he was so kind and lovely.... It's a shame he had to live with such horrible people and in such horrible circumstances, I'm happy he's in a better place now where he can be happy and look forward to us, he deserves happiness and love more than anyone in here... So please let's try to give him as much as we can" Says Yeonjun crying and touching everyone's heart.
I picture my Sweetheart in my mind smiling with that cute dimple of his, it was always a sunny day when he smiled, even in the middle of a storm his smile was able to warm my heart.
"He always put us first, no matter how, no matter where, no matter when, no matter why he always put us first, he protected us and fought for us until he said goodbye... I still can't say that word to him, this time it means forever and I don't want to let him go, but I guess I have to now... Goodbye Taehyun, thank you for everything you did for us, now it's my turn to protect them and I promise you, I'll make you proud of me... I love you son" Says Soobin before breaking out in a cry hugged by his fiancé, I have to admit they've always been a really cute and lovely couple, I'm happy they're finally getting married.
I wander if they thought the same of us... When we were happily together being lovely dovey and not just a widower with his dead boyfriend.
Then was Beomgyu's turn and I start to get nervous since I'm the next to talk.
He keeps drying his tears with the back of his thumb, he doesn't cry often... But this is the darkest hour for all of us.
"He was my other half, not romantically, but he was the opposite part of me, we argued and discussed a lot about anything, but we always ended up laughing at our own words, he welcomed me right away in our group without thinking twice, he trusted me and showed me what's real friendship is and I won't ever be grateful enough for that... I just wish I told him looking at him in his eyes... Thank you Taehyun, we all love you" Couple of tears falling down on his cheeks as he welcomes me to give the last speech.
I take a deep breath and I walk towards him, we hug each other and he delicately touches my back making room for me.
"Now Taehyun's boyfriend... Kai Kamal Huening, let's give him a bit of strength" Says the ceremonial and everyone claps for me and I get nervous and my eyes gets teary again.
"H-hi everyone" I stutter as beginning, I take another deep breath and it shakes not helping the situation.
I feel someone holding my arm, I look back and I see my three best friends hugging each other looking out for me.
"Come on Kai... We all know he wants to hear your voice the most" Says Yeonjun and I finally speak up.
"Hello everyone and thank you for coming... Me and Taehyun..." I take another deep breath trying to not to cry "We've always been together since the first day we met... We were kids and he was already there for me, protecting me and reassuring me at any time, he would've killed for me and I would've done the same... We were just 7 when we fell in love, we didn't even know what that was and we were already full of each other, it took us time to discover our feelings and the help of Soobin hyung... We were meant to be together, we fought, we cried, we laughed together and we went through everything together, we never gave up, we survived this cruel world and the scar that we have are a proof of that... But I guess at some point you get exhausted fighting for your life... For your happiness and you eventually loose the battle" I start crying hiding myself in my arms and I feel Yeonjun's hand petting my back, I recollect myself and I go on as I can.
"He lost his-... And I'm slowly getting exhausted as well, without him I don't even have the strength to get out of bed and being a person, I lost the only person I've ever loved and it won't come back ever again... And that's all his parents' fault, they tortured him, abused him, they destroyed him and left us with millions pieces that we had to rebuilt..." I say mad at what they done to him, to us and looking at the people in front of me like I'm about to do a massacre, rivers of tears falling down on my cheeks scarring them with red stripes "But I guess he was too broken to be able to go on... You said this was forever... But we didn't even start... I love you Sweetheart, I've never loved nobody like you... I'm sorry I couldn't help you enough, I'm sorry I failed as boyfriend, as friend, as the person who should have protected you from everything, as we promised... I don't want to say goodbye to you, I don't want to, please come back, I can't live without you" By now I'm a crying mess, they're probably think I'm going crazy... maybe I am, I don't know anymore, I lost everything I lived for... I just wanna die and meet him again.
"Kai, I know it's hard saying goodbye to the person you love the most" Says the ceremonial "I saw many widows being too desperate to say goodbye, but that's not one final goodbye, that's a see you soon in afterlife" He continues, not helping the situation.
"But how do I say goodbye to someone who's been with me for my whole life? Just like that? As he meant nothing to me?" I start raging and getting nervous.
"Say it in your secret, special way Kai" Suggests my mom from the audience.
"Everything will be over and buried with our past... Just let me go and will meet again soon... Goodbye Sweetheart" I say finally moving away from the mic and crying all my tears on my best friends' chest.
"He's gone... gone forever" I whisper tight-lipped and clenched fists.
"And with these heart-wrenching words we give the benediction to this young spirit so he can rise and cross the wall for the afterworld... Goodbye Kang Taehyun, rest in peace sweet boy" Says the ceremonial.

I get up from my seat, I get closer to the coffin and I hug it crying on that cold, hard, wooden surface.
"Why can't you stay with me? Why can't we stay together?" I whisper at this silent piece of wood.
"You used to be always chatty and joyful... What happened to you? You really had to stop the beautiful sound of your voice?" Useless questions that won't get answers anymore.
We head out of this place, me leading the procession behind the hears to the graveyard where a 2 meters deep pit is waiting for his coffin.
Tears won't stop falling since this morning and honestly I don't want them to stop... I just lost my only reason of living... I died with him, I'm only staying for my friends.
I stayed there in front of his tomb until it was fully filled and the slab of marble was placed.
Everyone was gone except for my friends, I sit down on that frozen, silent rock, like his body in that damned 4th March.
"We used to play outside when we were young full of love and full of life" I say almost whispering.
"I'll always love you... I promise and this is actually forever, I won't let anything and anyone stop my love for you, I love you Taehyun" I get up and I observe his tombstone, there's a picture of him I took the day before he died, three bouquets of flowers, one of daffodils, one of dandelions and one of daisies, I spot the inscription that says:

Kang Taehyun
Birth:05-02-2002 Death:21-10-2019
May this young soul rest in peace and live a happy afterlife as this world never deserved his kind spirit

"Goodbye my dear husband" I lay my rose on that grey slab and I slowly walk in my friends' arms, we looked at each other, everyone's eyes were red for all the crying, we all hugged a really tight and warm hug, but still it wasn't enough to warm our cold bodies and our dead hearts.
"He can relax now, he doesn't have anymore the anxiety of living" Says Beomgyu petting my back.
"He's in a better place now, don't worry about it" Says Soobin.
"Yeah, I'm sure he's watching us from up there right now" Adds Yeonjun.
"Thanks guys" My voice is just a whisper "Thank you for being here with me... With us for all this time" I say giving a quick glance at his tomb.
"We would have done it other hundred times more" Says Yeonjun ruffling my hair with a faint smile.
"Let's go back now" Says Soobin as he accompanies us to the car.
"I can't believe we are just four now" Whispers Yeonjun giving one last look at that graveyard where his body will rest forever.

I'm back home... all empty.
I stop in front of the fridge where we have some Polaroids and some photos on it, his last post it.
"I can't believe we're actually over... We were supposed to be friends forever, we were supposed to be always there for each other... Where are you now?" Useless words without any answer, I walk around the kitchen, scene of the most of our discussions and little talks, all the dinners, breakfasts and lunch we prepared for each other or together... all the memories and laughs we shared comes to my mind, like the countless times that happened this last days.
"I don't like walking around this old and empty house"
No answer to our usual complain, not even Hobak's sweet meows.
Defeat by this deaf silence I go upstairs.
Nothing has been moved form his bedside, his necklace is still there, the picture of his parents during their honeymoon, another of us when we were kids, his phone silent since that 21st, his alarm clock that stopped ringing as well.
I sigh touching my necklace, twin of his and I feel my cheeks wet again as my eyes start to burn by the nth tears that are falling down, if I continue crying like this I'll turn the cheetah legend into reality, I scoff at my own thoughts.
"It's really over, isn't it?" I whisper with my broken voice.
I look at my ring, a silver ring with a heart engraved on it... His gift form my birthday before he got kidnapped... Why he had to suffer so much? And for what? Loving me? I really can't understand some people's mind.
They lead him to this... It's all their fault, but I still feel guilty for not helping him more... I could have done more, I know I could.
I take it off of my finger and I place it on my bedside near the ring box, a red sign take place where my ring was.
"It's all empty now" I say as I look at my finger now naked.
I lay on my side of the bed and I pass a hand on his side, feeling it so cold sends a shiver down my spine... That side won't ever be warm again, I look at it for a while before I stay there staring at the ceiling, tears falling down in a loud silence, I stop that high whistle pressing my ears with my hands.
Finally the whistle inside my head stops and tired of everything I fall asleep meeting my Sweetheart in my dreams, as it will happen from now on.