I can't .

~5~

POV y/n: 

Angry, I walk into Lewis' locker room. "I hate him so much! Why does he always have to ruin everything!" "Toto?" "Why can't I just have a normal father like everyone else!" "Calm down y/n, tell me what happened?" I tell Lewis about my conversation with my father. "Why didn't you stick up for him? You were right there." "Sorry y/n but this is none of my business. You're my best friend but I can't do anything for you when things like this happen on track." Lewis's response also blows my mind. "You know what never mind, I'm going to my hotel room. I'll see you tomorrow." Irritated, I walk out of the paddocks and storm toward the exit. At the exit it is very crowded with people from the media, this is the last thing I am waiting for. For a moment I look around to see if I can find a cab, I rode with Lewis today and hadn't thought about leaving before he did. "Hey y/n, need a ride?" I hear Carlos' voice and I quickly turn in his direction and get in.

POV Carlos : 

The moment I want to drive away back to the hotel I see y/n looking around her a bit, despite being angry about the fact that she hasn't been completely honest with me I see that she could use some help and I ask her if she needs a ride, she doesn't hesitate for a moment and quickly gets in. "Thank you Carlos and sorry for the trouble you've been in today, I maybe should have said who I was earlier." I'm surprised she brings it up herself. "Would have saved me a lot of trouble yes. But anyway it happened and I'll know better next time." I can tell by her attitude that she regrets it. "Do you want to go for a drink?" "Do you still feel like it then, I mean with me?" "I won't let your father scare me away don't be afraid of that." She smiles a little uneasily. I drive on to our hotel and when we get there we walk together to the bar. I don't really know what to say to her, especially after the last time. I notice that I am finding it difficult to keep the conversation going this evening and not much is coming from her side either. "I think I'd better go to bed Carlos." "Sounds wise, come I'll take you up to your room."

As we get closer to the elevator I see Lewis and Toto coming in, quickly I pull her into the staircase with me and I am looked at questioningly. "Your father and Lewis just walked in, I think it would be wise if we take the stairs tonight." She agrees and walks ahead of me up the stairs, I can't help but look at her for a moment, she is perfect. "Are you coming?" "Yes I'm coming." Quickly I walk up the stairs after her. After the 3rd floor she stands still. "Can't we take the elevator from here?" "Come on we are almost there 2 more floors you can manage." She sighs and slowly walks on. I am in deep thought as I walk slowly behind her not realizing that I put my hand on hers as we go up the last few steps. "Carlos?" "What, did you say something?" "Your hand." I look at what she means for a moment and then withdraw my hand. "Sorry." "Don't be." I briefly look into her eyes and she into mine, she smiles and I can't help it, I grab her by her hand and slowly pull her in my direction. She stands so close to me that I can smell her perfume. I wrap my arms around her waist and I hear her breathing change. Just before I can give her a kiss I hear people enter the staircase and quickly I let go of her.

POV y/n:  

Carlos almost wanted to kiss me until suddenly we heard other voices, quickly we ran into the hallway, he took me to my room. "If you want you can still come in for a while?" I said to him. "Sure, but I won't make it too late." I close the door behind him and try to get my trembling hands under control a little. I don't really understand what he does to me, his look alone is enough to give me butterflies, I barely know him yet it feels familiar every time he is with me. We talk some more, not much because the conversation falls silent every time. When I get up to walk to the bathroom I am grabbed again by my waist, again I feel my heartbeat quicken. "I can't anymore." I hear him say softly, drowned in his eyes I let it all wash over me. I feel his lips come against mine, this feels so much better than I imagined. I am pushed onto the bed. I enjoy this moment until we are startled by a loud knock on my door. "Shit, what if it's my dad?" I push Carlos away and quickly straighten my clothes. "Wait here and don't make a sound." I hurry to the door and open it just a little bit, it's Lewis, a sigh of relief escapes my mouth. "Lewis, what are you doing here so late? I was just about to go to bed." "I wanted to see if you got back to the hotel safely, you were gone so quickly this afternoon." "Yeah I'm fine, but if you don't mind I'm going to bed now." "Yeah no problem, good night, see you tomorrow!" Quickly I close the door and wait a moment until I hear Lewis walk away. I suddenly start laughing. "This could have ended so badly." Carlos laughs too. "I guess I should go before I really get you in trouble." "Will I talk to you again soon?" "Just send me a message tomorrow, I put my number in your phone." Carlos hands me my cell phone. I get another quick kiss on my cheek before he leaves the room.