I can't .

~22~

POV Carlos:

Since seeing Isa again, I keep thinking about her and and I am wondering what she said to y/n. I haven't spoken to y/n much after we left Miami, all I know is that she went home to visit her mother. I am sitting in my yard with Rupert after we just went for a run. "You okay Carlos?" "Yeah why wouldn't I be?" "I can tell by looking at you that you are thinking about something." I smile. "You know me too well." "What is it?" "I saw Isa last weekend." I tell Rupert what happened and that I'm having trouble letting it go and keeping my attention on y/n, especially since she has quite a few problems of her own. "Carlos you really are impossible sometimes." I raise my eyebrow at him. "First you want her and now it's not good enough. She left Mercedes for you." "I know, but I don't think it's fair if I can't get Isa out of my head to keep her on a leash. Besides her father is never going to approve and he will hopefully one day regret it and then the whining will start all over again." "You think too much." Maybe Rupert is right too, but I still want to deal with this my way.

POV y/n:

I love being back home with my mom and Jack, even if it's just for a week. "How's your dad?" "I wouldn't know if I'm honest." I haven't told her anything about him firing me and he apparently hasn't told her anything either. "Is everything okay between you guys?" I let a silence fall and see her shake her head. "Not again right? What were you guys talking about this time?" "About Carlos and then he fired me, but I now work at the Alfa Romeo with Bottas." "Ow come on y/n this really can't be." "It's not my fault he gets so mad at my every time I like someone." "Are you guys still talking to each other?" I shake my head no. She sighs and grabs her cell phone off the table. "I'm going to call him because this really can't be happening." "No mom don't do it it doesn't make sense anyway." But she presses his name into her contact list and walks out of the room, in the distance I hear her yelling at him, I am not waiting for this and without saying anything I grab my car keys and head for Lewis.

Together with Lewis, we went for a run. "You will really have to go talk to him anyway, it is your father though and as far as I understood he regrets his action." "I don't believe it, I'm fine with Alfa now." "And if I say I miss you?" "That's not going to help unfortunately, if he wants me back he would have to come up with that himself." "Have you seen him at all?" "Only when I left the track with Carlos last Sunday." We run towards Lewis' apartment again and he asks if I want to join him for dinner, I go in with him and he makes dinner.

I am startled awake by my cell phone ringing and I look at the screen a little hard, it's my mom, I push her away and rub my eyes. "Good morning." Says Lewis and he smiles. "It's always fun to watch a movie with you, I think Rosco has seen more than you have." He jokes. "I don't even remember falling asleep." "I didn't mean to wake you you must have needed your sleep." "What time is it?" "A little after 2." "You really couldn't have woken me up, my mom must be worried I'm not home yet." "Then let her know you're with me I'm sure she won't mind, I'm not going to let you leave so late." I do as Lewis says and honestly I don't really mind being with Lewis for a while either. "I don't have anything to sleep in." He gets up and returns a moment later with a shirt of his that is way too big for me.

Lewis made me breakfast the next morning, after breakfast he takes me to my car and I get a kiss on my cheek as I leave. "Thanks Lewis." "Anytime."

POV Carlos:

I have posted a few stories on my Instagram and I notice that Isa keeps viewing and liking them. I haven't heard from y/n for the past week, I am starting to doubt again about my feelings for her if they are real or if it is just the feeling of lust. I am on my way to the Monaco circuit for the upcoming race. When I get out of my car the first thing I notice is Isa's pink car. I roll my eyes and wonder what she is doing here this time, I hope I meet y/n as well. As I walk past the hospitality I see Isa walking in the distance, I start to walk a little slower so I don't have to overtake her, when she suddenly turns around she waves to me and comes walking my way. "Hey Carlitos." "Stop calling me that please." "Still grumpy I see. How's your girlfriend?" I shrug my shoulders somewhat nonchalantly. "Ow that doesn't sound like you guys are having a super cozy time." "What do you want this time Isa? Did you come here to cause more fuss?" "No I wouldn't dare." Her voice sounds sarcastic. 

Isa walks with me to the Ferrari pit boxes where she greets Charles as if she had never left. Charles makes a motion to me of he doesn't quite understand what to make of this. I myself don't understand why I let her walk with me this far, we were talking and I didn't really think about it either. Isa touches me just a little too often and I don't realize what she is doing until I see her looking toward the Alfa Romeo where I see y/n standing outside. She shakes her head and I see from her face that I have something to explain if I still have a chance to do so. "Well done Isa, this is what you wanted right?" "I don't know what you're talking about." "Never mind." Without another word I run towards Bottas' pit box. "Ho Carlos, I believe you are not supposed to be here." Says Bottas to me as I try to walk in with them. "I have to find y/n, come on." "Yeah I don't think she wants to talk to you right now." "Come on!" I almost beg him. "Sorry Carlos but she's been very clear with me, she doesn't want to see you." Angry I turn around and walk back to the Ferrari boxes. "If you're not out of here real quick I'm going to hurt you." I say to Isa, my hands shaking with anger, she grins and without saying anything she walks away. " What does she do here every time?" "Carlos calm down, we'll fix this!" Says Charles when he sees I'm having a hard time.