I can't .

~17~

POV Carlos:

I wake up to a loud banging on my room door. I look next to me in bed and I see y/n still sleeping. There is another knock on my door, I throw the covers off me and walk to the door, I open it a crack and I am shocked when I see who is standing there, it is Toto and from his look he is everything except cheerful this morning. "Where's my daughter Sainz?!" I don't have time to answer, Toto pushes the door open further and walks past me into my room. "Toto, you can't do this!" I finally get out of my mouht. I get an angry look from him and I see a vein in his neck swell, it is clear to see that he is angry. "If I were you I would stay very far away from her, you bring me nothing but misery, she hasn't been with her mind at work since she met you!" Toto is yelling at me when I see y/n wake up behind him, her look twitches when she sees her father standing in the room. "Dad what are you doing here?" He turns to her and almost pulls her out of the bed. "I better ask you, what did I tell you! If you want to continue working at Mercedes, you really have to prove that you can do something! You've been so busy with Sainz lately! And are you also going to explain to me what happened between you and George? Get dressed and I'll meet you in my office!" Angry, he walks out of the room and there's an awkward silence. 

I sit down next to her on the bed in rubbing her back; I see she is trying to hold strong for me. "You can cry if you want, it doesn't matter." She lays her head against my chest and I feel her shoulder jerk. "It's not fair, I'm an adult I could make my own choice about who I work for and who I date!" I rub her back to comfort her, I immediately feel guilty about last night. "Do you regret yesterday?" I ask her, she shakes her head. "No, I don't regret anything, not as long as I can be with you." I don't really know what to say because I have so many questions of my own but I don't think this is a good time to ask her them.

POV y/n:

After getting dressed quickly I am on my way to my father's office, after my conversation with Carlos this morning I plan to tell him that I don't always do what he asks of my anymore and that I would like to be with Carlos. When I arrive at his office I see George sitting there, he looks bad and I wonder what is wrong with him. "Where is my father?" I ask gently to as I take a seat next to him at the conference table. "Getting coffee, he should be back soon." His answer sounds distant something I'm not used to from him, yesterday nothing was wrong, could this also have to do with Carlos? Surely he knew we would break up if I saw another chance with Carlos. "Are you okay George? You look bad." "I'm okay, not that you care." "Why are you acting weird all of a sudden?" George looks away and sighs. "I was really starting to have feelings for you, I knew that wasn't the case for you but still it hurts y/n, especially seeing you with him again right away." I don't know how to answer this and I don't need to because at that moment my dad walks in. "Glad you could come over too, can you explain to me what happened yesterday?" Is the first question he asks, for a moment George and I look at each other and then I take the floor. "It's my fault dad, I got irritated with the things George was doing, it wasn't because of him it was because of me, I'm not ready to get into a relationship with anyone and didn't want to string him along any longer." "And that's why you ended the evening in Carlos' bed?" "Dad please don't." "Why not, please tell me what is going on between you and Sainz?" "Nothing! Really!" "Like I said this morning I don't want to see you around him anymore and as for your relationship, you guys just make sure you talk it out together because I don't feel like arguing within the team, did you understand that!" Both of us nod that we understand him.

 I am pissed at everything at the moment and I decide to go back to my room and change again to get out for a run. As I stand outside I set up my tracker that keeps track of how much I've run, I also create a point via google maps so I can easily find the hotel again later, I take my earbuds out of my pants pocket and am still standing for a moment looking for a good number when I feel someone tapping on my shoulder. "Can I walk with you?" Looking behind me I see Lewis standing there. "Sure, gladly even I could use some company after this morning." Together we start walking. "George was really devastated even though he knew it was all fake." I tell Lewis. "I figured it out, yesterday when you left he told me everything." "What about you Lewis?" I get a strange look for a moment but then answer my question anyway.

"You know how I feel about you y/n but I wish you all the happiness in the world and I still think our friendship is more important than I would want a relationship with you, you are my best friend even though we have been apart lately and didn't get along very well, I still love you just the way you are." Lewis's words are the most sincere words I've heard today, so I can't help but stop running and suddenly burst into tears. All the emotion of these days is just too much for me. Lewis also stops running and comes walking back, pulling me into his arms to protect me from the people walking outside, whispering sweet words to me and rubbing my back.

POV Lewis:

A feeling of shame fills me as I stand with y/n in my arms, I can't handle seeing her like this but I also don't dare tell the truth about having been the one who asked Toto to call her last night when I knew she was with Carlos, I feel so bad about myself but I also couldn't stand to see George look so bad after she left. George and I may not be the best of friends but I knew exactly how he must feel. We talked late into the evening in his hotel room, George had bought her a present and had gone to show it to me but couldn't find it because he had had too much to drink. I felt sorry for him and finally put him to bed and left. Then I went to Toto and told my story, I feel dirty about talking to her father behind her back but it was the only right option for me, for George and for the team, we couldn't have this after so much drama, the news that it was over between them would cause enough drama let alone her being seen with Carlos.

When we get back to the hotel lunch has just started and I drag her into the dining room despite her not wanting to, I find George somewhere in the back and point her to the seat, she shakes her head but I don't give her much choice. With reluctance and a single sandwich on her plate she walks with me. "Hello George, how are you today?" I ask him. He looks at me a little absentmindedly and judging by his posture he has quite a hangover from yesterday. "Hey George." Says y/n and I see his eyes completely clear up when he sees her.