Katrina

chapter 45

Inspirational songs for this chapter :)

When I Think Of You - Janet Jackson

I Can Only Imagine - David Guetta ft Chris brown and Lil Wayne

Katrina's pov

Waking up on the floor, made my back crack from the soreness of the hard floor beneath me. My face was screaming from the heat of the unfogotten heater which was turned on last night before doozing off to sleep. Getting up from my position on the floor was harder than it looks. A migraine was formed in my head and my red puffy eyes from all the crying I had been doing during my sleep just thinking about justin

Turning on the kennel to make a cup of coffee and some eggs before sitting on the small round wooden table. The morgage is well beyond payed off from the money that justin had been giving for the work I had done for him and from the will that my father had left behind

I was thinking all throughout breakfast if i should leave justin or not and I decided I couldn't bare to see Clara and Justin under the same roof together. Setting my mind up on my new goal as I was Leaving my small apartment to start looking around the shops that needed some workers

"Hello, my name is Katrina Martinis, I saw your sign outside, are you looking for workers?" I asked the employee who was standing behind the cash register in a small Café which was popular by the locals around my area

"Yes, you can speak to the manager, he is right over there" the guy who's name was Sam, knowing by the name tag that is attached to his red and black polo shirt

"Thank you" I spoke and made my was to the manager who was busy fiddling with some papers on a table

"Hello" I greeted the manager

"Hello dear, how can I help you" the manager stood up as I shook his hand that was offered towards me

"I was wondering if you needed workers as I saw the sign that is outside" I spoke

"Sure we are, please have a seat" he pointed towards the empty seat that was direct to where he was seating

"Thank you"

I was a little nervous, I was fidgeting in my seat and playing with my fingers as I answered all his questions

"Great, thanks Miss Martinis, you can start next week" we stood up and I thanked him before leaving the Café and heading to justin's house to let him know that I was resigning

Standing outside the office building, after I called the house and Sofiah told me that he was in the office. Having the courage to enter the building door for the first time. I made my way to the receptionist desk and asked her if Mr Bieber was in his office and she told me to go up the elevators and up to the 7th floor

Reaching the 7th floor, my heart was pounding at my ribcage as I stepped into a small lobby, seeing a secretary behind her desk.

"Hi, Miss Martinis, Mr Bieber is waiting for you, you may go in" I smiled at her and adjusted my gaze towards the big wooden doors

I took a deep breath and knocked on the door, when I heard a 'come in'. Opening the door to see Justin sitting behind a big desk with papers surronding the whole table

"Kat!" As he said my name, my legs become weak and I couldn't manage to walk one step, so I stood near the door and found amuzement on the marble floor

"Kat, im so happy to see you, it's been hell when you were gone" he literally ran towards me with a big smile on his face that reached his eyes. Grabbing my face between his hands

"Kat, where have you been. I have been trying to reach you on your phone but it keeps going to voicemail. You go me so worried last night" he spoke as we looked into each other's eyes

I got out of his hold. If I stayed looking into his mesmerizing brown orbs of his, I won't be able to contain myself and I would just kiss him like there is no tomorrow

Walking towards the large window, folding my arms underneath my breasts and taking deep breaths to calm my nervers down before turning towards the man that is undressing me with his eyes, not letting my words come out

"Justin, we need to talk" I told him when I faced him again with a serious expression on my face

"About what?" He asked a smile was still on his face

"I'm resigning from my duties at your house" I told him and the way his face dropped at my words and his eyes become the shade of darkness made me take a step back from him and look somewhere else

"No your not" he shook his head and spoke with a confident voice

"I am" I stepped away from him when he came to close for my comfort

"So your quitting just like that, huh" the way he spoke those words it was like in pain and it felt I couldn't breath just imagine not seeing him everyday pained me to the sense I had to take deep breaths

"Your making it harder, then it should be" I told him as I looked at him

"Harder than it should be, i was beyond dead last night when you told me you were leaving the house. I couldn't feel any emotion. I went into my office and drank and drank until I was screaming your name and I was so out of it that I don't even remember that I had trashed my home office and sleeping on broken glass from the alcohol bottles. That's hard kat, you have changed me, you changed everything about me and you changed my son julian as well. He kept asking about you, what are we going to tell him, that your gone and will not come back. His mum left him when he was just seven years old. She left us and it was hard for us to cope. Julian needed his mother at the crucial time of his life when he was growing up, but she just left with her boyfriend. YOU out of all people you can't leave me, you can't leave julian. We need you. We need you kat" by the time he had finished, I was wiping away my tears.

I didn't know that I had affected the bieber family that much as I was only a babysitter in that household but by the words of Justin, I meant more than words can describe

"I can't stay, im sorry" I told him

"Fine. Then you can tell julian that your leaving. I'm not going to stop you. But just remember there will be always a job, a home, a friend to come to if you need anything.  The door will ALWAYS be open for you,   one more thing before you go kat.." he came towards me and kissed me, I kissed him back with the same passion before he pulled away and looked in my eyes

"That I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU"