I have loved you for a thousand years (I'll love you for a thousand more)

Darling don't be afraid I have loved you (For a thousand years)

Warning: None.

Extra tags: soulmates, reincarnation au, adhd eren, sweet, tooth-rotting fluff, engagement, uncertainty, insecurities, dancing, running away

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DAY FIVE: 29th JULY [Uncertainty], [Dance]

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Narrative POV ✧ 2025 September

Eren and Levi are sitting at a table surrounded by friends and family. It's days before the big day, their wedding, and it's safe to say that nerves have begun to rise for the occasion. It's their mixed bachelor's party, both surrounded by the people who love them the most.

Eren has been feeling ill for a while now. It's not cold feet, no, he's very happy to be Levi's husband. He's totally excited to be a father to the little bean his fiance is growing. It's him being the best husband for Levi is struggling. Will he be good enough for the smaller male? Will he be able to keep him happy every day for the rest of their lives? Will he be able to satisfy him to his every need, as is expected of him? Will he be a good father to little bean? Will he be able to spoil the bean or will his ADHD keep him from being the best father? Will Levi still want him if their child has ADHD just like him? Oh, Walls, what if the baby has ADHD and Levi doesn't want him or the baby anymore? What if...?

Everything becomes too much for Eren, and he throws himself to his feet, and he allows them to carry him wherever they need to go. He runs, keeps running, ignores Levi's frantic voice behind him. Ignores his mother's, his father's, his friends, Hanji, Erwin, Petra, the guys, the many voices. So many voices. Just shut up. Shut up. SHUT UP!

There are trees on either side of Eren, everywhere he looks. Trees. Trees. More trees. Some more trees. Bushes and shrubs and thick patches of vines and thorns biting at his skin and bugs. Wild animals. Deer, wolves, bears, rabbits, tree frogs, cicadas. A stream. Fish. Trout and salmon and bass and turtles.

An alligator. It didn't bother him. He didn't bother it. Just kept running. Running some more. He was breathing really hard. Tunnel vision. Going blurry. Tears in his eyes. Skin flushed under his suit. A thin film of sweat covering his entire body. He's sticky and hot and it's dark and there are stars now? What? When did that happen? The moon is full. Oh, yeah. That's right. No wonder the wolves are howling tonight. He thought they were chasing him. Guess not.

There is a meadow up ahead. He can see the moon streaming through the brackets of the branches. He breaks through the wildlife and into the clearing. It's full of fresh air, and he can breathe again.

He stops running. Gets knocked off his feet by exhaustion. Stumbles on his ass and then his back. Lays there in silence as he allows his breathing to even out. Does the simple breathing exercises that Levi taught him. His heart, which is erratic and pounds against his chest loudly, it hurts. Like it's trying to tear itself out of his ribs forcefully.

He watches the stars, seemingly distracted from life by the twinkling lights he can't see from his home. Fireflies begin to roam the area, ignoring him. He watches them flit by here and there. It reminds him of that song, the one about insomnia.

♪ To ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said, "Farewell" (they said farewell)
But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre

'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar (jar, jar, jar)
I'd like to make myself believe that planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep) ♪