confused | m.surniolo ✓

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"matt?"

i let go of riley's hand and turn around to look at matt. i go back to his bed and sit next to him to hold his hand again. "what happened leila?" madi asks coming to sit next to me. "i swear i just heard matt say my name" i tell her.

she rubs my back for comfort then stays next to me while riley goes off to get us some cake. a single tear falls down my eye "matt?" i say. i could see his eyes moving and soon enough, i felt pressure on my hand, the hand that was holding his.

he slowly opens his eyes and squints at the brightness of the lights around the room "wassup" he says with a dry voice. i smile and now begin to cry uncontrollably "no fucking way" i say and tackled him in a hug "ow" i hear him say. i quickly get off him "fuck sorry, i forgot" i say wiping my tears. madi was also crying and once i let go of him, madi hugged him but not as hard as i did cause she didn't want to hurt him with all his injuries "you stupid fuck" she says while hugging him. he smiles at madi then looks at me and i smile back. "you're lucky you're injured. when you get better i'm gonna fucking beat your ass" madi says.

"ok so your brother got three different kinds of cake... we have chocolate cake, or vani-" riley starts but then stops when she sees matt... awake. "nah you're fucking joking" she says getting teary "um- i don't think so" matt says, but he actually looks confused which makes me and madi laugh a bit. she goes to hug him and then i call the boys over.

"what's up leil-" chris says but just like riley, stops when he sees matt. "hey dude" matt says repositioning himself on the bed slowly. "you fucking dumbass piece of shit" chris says going in to hug him "yeah, im not sure if i feel like hugging you anymore" matt says.

"im never letting you fucking drive ever again kid" chris says wiping away the tears falling from his eyes. "what do you mean?" matt says "you've been in a coma for literally 2 fucking months idiot" chris continues and matt looks at him confused and also annoyed "ok seriously, what's up with all the name calling?"

next, nick hugs him and so does caleb and now we're all sitting around him just telling him everything that had happened because he told us that he couldn't remember anything. "the only thing i remember is my car being knocked over and hearing sirens... oh, and i remember feeling a lot of people hold my hand. it was mad awkward cause i tried to move or do something but i couldn't."  matt tells us.

we talk more until chris brings up another subject "oh matt, leila literally just released her album, like 15 minutes ago or something" he says. matt smiles and looks at me "see, i knew you could do it" he says and i smile. caleb got out his phone and played my album for him. "lei, this is fucking awesome. and i know because i was there when you recorded more than half these songs" he tells me. "thanks" i reply with smile.

we talk a bit more until the doctor walks into the room, "oh, mr.sturniolo! i'm so happy you're ok" she says shocked to see him awake, causing all of us to look in her direction. "thank you. you can call me matt by the way" he tells her with a smile. "your friends here, and im assuming siblings," she says pointing at chris and nick "have been right next to you these whole what, 2 months? or something" she says. "they haven't left your side" she finishes.

matt smiles and looks around at all of us smiling, "day ones" he says. "well, i just came to check in on you guys, and you guys seem good to me" the doctor says "i'll come back tomorrow morning to give you a check up to see when you can leave the hospital and to see if you need to take any medications" she says smiling and closing the door behind her as we all say thank you and bye.

at this point, everyone in the room was crying. i was so happy. happiest i've been in these last two months. this kid really means the world to me, and so does everyone else in this room. but i honestly don't know what the fuck i'd do without matt...

we talk for ages until about 5am when we all go to our beds to sleep. we were all in bed on our phones, and within about 10 minutes everyone fells asleep but i was still awake. "lei, you awake?" i hear matt say from his bed. "yeah" i answer. "can you come?" he asks "please?" he continues.

i smile to myself and sit up to look at him. my bed was across the room from him so i had to really sit up straight to see him. "yeah hold on give me a sec" i say. i grab my phone and as i approach his bed, he opens his arms for a hug. man i missed him way more than i thought i did, i thought to myself.

"what's up?" i ask. "can you um- sleep with me tonight?" he asks. "uh- yeah sure" i say. he makes room for me in his bed and pulls the covers over me and wrapped his arms around me. "how're you feeling?" he asks. i quietly fake laugh "shitty" i reply. "you eat today?" he asks and a small smile appears on my face- he cares. "i did don't worry"

"you have no idea how much we all cried. for 2 months straight" i continue. he quietly chuckles "you guys are the best people in my life. well, other than my parents and my brothers" he says. i turn around so that im now facing him but he keeps his arms around my waist and im playing with the buttons on his hospital shirt

"you're the one who was in a coma for 2 fucking months" i say laughing "how do you feel?" i ask him. "fine actually. i just can't feel my legs sometimes. like i feel like i don't have any" he says and chuckles. he holds me tighter "im sorry for making you guys worry about me lei" i look up to him so that my eyes meet his "please don't say sorry... that guy was drunk, if anything it's his fucking fault" i say. "i missed you so much stupid, you have no fucking clue" i continue. he pulls me to his chest and i rest my head in it. he kisses my head "night lei"

i sigh in comfort and close my eyes "night matt"

he's back

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