Beautiful Mistake

2

"Breakfast is ready, Xie" sambit ni River pagpasok nito sa kwarto ni Zac

"I'll eat later" pag-iwas ko sa kanya

"Why? Is something wrong?" Tanong nito holding my arm but I shoved him off

"Xie..."

"Hindi pa ako gutom"

"A-are you sure?"

"Oo. Kumain ka na"

"I can wait—"

"Kumain ka na nga!" Sigaw ko na ikinabigla niya

"D-did I do something wrong, Xie?"

"Wala" sambit ko na lang lifting my son up bago ko siya tinalikuran

Isang... isang beses pa. Isang beses pa na marinig ko siya mula sa bibig mo, tama na. Aalis na ko.

Buong araw hindi ko kinausap si River kahit pa ilang beses siyang nagpumilit na lumapit sa akin. He approaches Zac and I let him but when he approaches me, I leave.

"Yaya... pakibigay na lang po... a-ayaw yata ako makita ng asawa ko" rinig ko mula sa likod ko

"Mam, gatas po?"

"Salamat yaya"

"Mam?"

"Po?"

"May nagawa daw po ba si Sir River na ikinakagalit niyo?"

"Wala, yaya" sambit ko na lang

"Sige po"

Dumating ang gabi, hindi ako makatulog. He seemed to be up for some time hanggang sa lumalim ang paghinga niya.

"Hannah...jdfj... no!"

So that's it. That's my cue to leave.

River's PoV

In his dreams...

"Hannah..."

"Are you playing with her?"

"Xie? Hannah no!"

"That's good then. Will you hurt her?"

"No! Hannah, I loved you but I love her now"

"Take care of her okay? I'll be here... always"

"Thank you Hannah" 

Third person's PoV

"W-wait Xie what are you doing?!" Tanong ni River pag-uwi nito sa bahay nila when he saw her baggage filled with clothes

"Aalis na kami ng anak ko" matigas na sambit ni Xie

"Wait why?! Anong nagawa ko?! Xie! Answer me!"

"Ayoko na!" Sambit ni Xie sa asawa pulling all her clothes from him

"I-Iiwan mo ko?" Nanginginig na sambit ni River

"If that's what I needed to do, then oo, oo aalis kami ng anak ko"

"B-but... I need you"

"Need me? Sa tingin mo sapat na yung kailangan mo ko para hindi ako umalis? River tao din ako!"

"Please... wag naman Xie"

"Hangga't nasa buhay mo yang si Hannah wag mong aasahang papasok o babalik kami ng anak mo sa buhay mo. Wala akong pake kung kailangan mo ko. Hindi ko kailangan ng taong kakapit lang saken pag wala nang ibang option! River... I gave myself to you accidentally, oo. Pero pinaramdam mo rin saken na hindi mo talaga ginusto, na hindi ako laman ng puso mo!"

"Xie what are you saying?"

"What am I saying? Di ba siya pa rin? Ha? Si Hannah pa rin ang mahal mo! Hanggang panaginip siya tinatawag mo! Hindi ako! Hindi mo ko mahal! Hindi mo ko minahal!"

Tila natigilan si River sa sinabi ni Xie dito... contemplating on everything she told him. Lalong lalo na yung parte na... na hindi niya minahal si Xie. When in fact he did. He only loved her this way. Not Hannah. Not anyone else. Hindi niya alam bakit nadawit ang ex niya sa eksena. Matagal na itong namatay. Matagal na niya itong pinakawalan. Hindi niya alam saan siya nagkulang at kung anong mali ang nagawa niya sa asawa. All he knows is she's hurt by something he's not aware of.

He loved her even before she knew about him. When she approached him, he saw the opportunity and made love with her. That night was never an accident for him.

Hannah was his teenage love who died in a car accident. Oo minahal niya ito but the trauma of losing someone was left in him, at si Xie lang ang nagpawala nun sa kanya. Sobrang saya niya nang malamang nabuntis niya ang dalaga that he didn't hesitate one bit into marrying her.

He tried his very best to treat her right and provide her with everything para hindi siya mauwi sa nangyari kay Hannah... pero kulang pa rin pala.

Wala na siyang nagawa kundi hayaang umalis ang asawa at anak kahit alam niyang hindi niya kakayanin

"S-san na naman ako nagkulang?" Sambit nito sa sarili looking at the open door of their room wanting to expect her back in which might never happen again.