[eye love you] • seek x figure • [DISCONTINUED]

[chapter 7]

Figures pov:

I lay in the silence of my room for a few minutes. Convincing myself to get out of my bed. I couldn't. I had still felt somber by the fact Seek probably didn't love me like I loved him. I sighed, I wasn't sure if I wanted to visit Seek today but I knew I had to at some point. There were nothing else I could do, besides sitting in my room listening to the rain. I lifted myself off the beds mattress and sat on the side of the bed.

I thought for a moment. I just wanted to hug Seek. To feel my arms wrap around him. To feel his hands in mine. But I couldn't have that, it'd be weird. To ask randomly. Wouldn't it? Since he probably only saw me as a friend or less? Ugh.

I wish I had someone to talk to about this. Any entity. But I doubt anyone would have any relationship advice. I thought about it for a bit and I would just be thankful for any entity to just listen to my problems. There doesn't have to be a solution. I had sighed again, I didn't want to get out of bed at all. I laid back down and wrapped myself in the warm blanket. I just wanted to lay there, and hopefully fall asleep at some point just to pass time.

Seeks pov:

I love Figure so much. It felt confusing because I've never "love" someone or anything before. I mean, I guess I love rain but that's really it. I laid in my bed, tossing and turning thinking about Figure. His comforting voice, his personality, just his mere presence. But... now that I had thought about it he probably didn't love me back. I mean, I didn't know any other signs of "love."

Maybe the kind way he acts around me is his way of showing love. He wasn't that talkative with other entities. I felt like I was getting ahead of myself, he could've just trusted me severely since I was the first entity he had interacted with. God. This love thing was pathetic. Pathetic as in it hurts. Hurts so much... because every single one of my thoughts were about Figure. I wanted to tell someone about my feelings. anybody. But I resisted. Love made me feel weak to my core, and if I told somebody they'd definitely tell another entity. Then... every entity in the hotel would find out and see me as weak. Pathetic.

I'm an entity that's only really here to kill. I shouldn't feel love. But... here I am. Being crushed by this feeling while laying in my bed, wasting the last day of my weekend away. I felt like seeing Figure, but ever since I figured out what love was it made my attraction towards him stronger. I didn't even know if the correct term for what I was feeling were even "love." I had just learned what it is and don't even understand it completely.

I started getting a headache from thinking about so many thoughts. I sighed heavily as it reminded me to the first time I had met Figure. That day. That boring long day in this hotel. God, I had to do something to get the topic out my mind, but to no avail I couldn't think of anything else to do to distract me. It was like an addiction.

I laid up out of my bed, I just had hoped that these thoughts would hamper when work started again. Halt would be disappointed hearing that I was slacking off because I was distracted by the thought of another entity. I stared at the ground. I needed to talk to someone about this. These thoughts. They didn't feel normal. I knew they didn't feel normal. But if I told someone there'd be no doubt, again, they'd end up reaching Figures attention and then he would hate me forever for thinking about him that way. Probably disgusted too...

As I sat there, I had realized I needed to go to Figure anyway to take him to the library. I didn't feel like visiting him, but there were no way for him to navigate to the library by himself, and I hadn't trust any entity with Figure yet. Oh God, I hope he wasn't waiting too long for me. I quickly jumped out of my bed, changing the arrival spot to the outside of the secret entrance. Climbing out the puddle, I stumbled slightly as I grasped the closets doors and pulled them open, jogging down the steps.