Another chance (kunizai)

4

Kunikida pov

"Dazai wait"!

I grabbed him again but this time I didn't let go. I made him face me only to see tears falling down his face.

I don't say anything more as I pull him into my chest and let him cry. I feel his hands grip the back of my shirt as I run my hand through his hair. His hair was just as soft as it looks.

I heard him start to calm down a little so I took him to his room. We both sat on the bed with him looking down at his hands and me looking at him.

"Dazai what happened "?

"I'm sorry kunikida. I'm so sorry".

I pulled him back into a hug as I saw tears forming in the corners of his eyes again. I had one hand on his back and the other messing with his hair. "Shhh dazai its ok. I'm not mad".

"You should be"!

I shook my head and started rubbing circles around his back as I whispered more calming words to him until he calmed down again.

"Do you want to tell me what happened "?

He shook his head and I sighed.

"That's ok you don't have to speak if you don't want to".

Dazai nodded and continued to rest his head on my chest with me brushing through his hair with my fingers.

We stayed like that for about an hour when suddenly the door opened and Mori stood in front of us.

Dazai glared at him as Mori smirked.

"Because you have proven that you cannot be trusted alone osamu, kunikida will be staying in your room".

"What"!

Dazai pulled away from my arms to look at his uncle.

"You heard what I said osamu, you have proven that you cannot be left alone so you will be on constant supervision. That means you have to now share a room with kunikida but it's not that bad. You'll have to do that once your married anyway".

"I know that but I was enjoying my last few weeks of privacy "!

"We'll you lost that privilege and so you know the wedding will be at the end of next week so time is ticking you two".

With that Mori left the room. Dazai looked furious as he plopped himself face down on the bed and started crying again.

"Is it really that bad you have to share a room with me"?

Dazai looked up at me with a glare. " I'm not upset at having to share a room with you. Im upset about having to share a room In general. I could care less that it's you who I have to share with".

Ouch

This is going to be a rough marriage.

I looked outside and saw it must be sometime past midnight so I had a servant bring me my clothes since my stuff would be moved to this room tomorrow.

I turned around as dazai changed and he did the same for me.

After we got dressed we climbed into bed and faced away from each other.

"Goodnight dazai"

I wait for his reply but nothing comes and it makes me sigh.

I turn to face his back and think about how this would probably be the view I get of my future husband for the rest of my life.

I still don't know why he tried to kill himself but I feel like I am to blame for it. Yet if it were what I said earlier that made him so upset that wouldn't make any sense. It's clear Dazai doesn't like me so why would he care if I liked him.