Another chance (kunizai)

6

Dazais pov

"I love you"

Those words shocked me . I thought this must be a joke. A sick horrible joke.

"Haha very funny kunikida now really what do you want "?

Kunikida looked confused. "I was being serious. I do love you ".

"Now now kunikida if you keep retelling the joke then it won't be funny anymore ".

"I'm really not joking. I do love you. How hard is it for you to just trust me" ?

Trust him?

It's not that I don't trust him.

I just don't trust anyone.

Every person I had ever felt anything for had always left me . My parents died and any past relationships had left me when they found out that I won't be king. That's why every prince and princess turned me down. They only wanted me to get to the throne.

I mean I don't blame them. Who would want to marry an ugly annoying attention seeking man child.

"Kunikida you should go. We are to be married tomorrow and is seeing each other is bad luck ".

"Dazai wai-" before he could finish I shut the door. I leaned against it with my head and I heard a sigh from outside the door then footsteps.

How could he even fall for me in the first place. We haven't spent that much time together and I've been nothing but mean to him.

Tears fill my eyes as I imagine him and Chuuya laughing about how kunikida deceived me into loving him. I hated it.

I went outside on the balcony and saw the city below busy at work and banners and different color streamers hung up on different buildings.

I was to be married tomorrow. And this was all proof of it.

I didn't want to watch anymore. The more I thought of the Marriage the more I wanted to cry. I wanted to trust kunikida but I've been hurt to many times. He could never possibly love me so why bother loving him.

But you can't stop feelings just because you want to.

I laid down in my bed face first into the pillow. This was the pillow Kunikida slept on. It still smelled like him.

I bury my face deeper into the pillow and curled myself into a ball.

I hate that I love him.

I hadn't realized that I had fallen asleep until I heard bells ringing and people rushing around outside.

"Oi wake up dumbass it's your wedding day".

I whined but still got out of bed before Chuuya kicks me.

"Do I have to marry"?

"Yes you do and I know you like kunikida and he likes you back so no complaints ".

"He doesn't actually. He is just faking loving me".

"Why do you say that".

I stayed quite for a little while and Chuuya comes over to me holding the suit I was supposed to wear.

"Osamu what happened "?

I shook my head to avoid responding but Chuuya sat next to me and placed a hand on my back.

"Osamu I have been your friend for as long as you've been alive. You know you can tell me anything".

I stayed quiet As long as I could but the tears forming in the back of my eyes made things a bit more difficult. When I felt the hand Chuuya held on my back start running gentle circles on my back as a comforting motion I knew I couldn't hold on any longer.