Under Control

Ch 55: Discovery

Azrael pov:

My sleep has been plagued with nightmares. A month has passed and I haven't slept well since. They started normal, calm, elusive even… then they turned for the worse.

Dreams of Amilia, us together, some with kids I wished to have, even a few of our wedding. Just when I think I could sleep peacefully, it worsens. She's killed in front of me, sometimes it's quick, and other times it's brutal.

It's always Ryker doing it. He kills her right in front of me, taking the one thing I can't lose. He basks in my suffering, relishes it when he takes his time. I listen to her screams, her pleas for me to save her. Each time I have to watch, held down or restrained in some fashion.

I always wake in a cold sweat, sometimes I scream as I wake. But I keep these from her, I didn't want her to worry or to think I've gone insane. Yet, the insomnia is getting worse, some nights I just don't sleep… like tonight.

I watch her instead, caressing her hair, kissing her temple, calming my soul with her presence. She's been cranky lately, feeling fat and or needing me more often than not. I'm not one to complain but I've never seen this woman so needy for me.

It made me chuckle to think of her bitchy attitude as of recent. I hold her tighter and watch as the sun rises through the window, smiling when she begins to stir awake.

"You woke me." She pushes me away and turns over, showing her beautfully scarred back to me. 

"I'm sorry love, I couldn't sleep." She groans and shoves herself back into me. Humming quietly she reaches behind and tangles a hand into my hair.

"You didn't sleep?" She was half awake, barely registering what she's saying. I wrap my arm around her waist and pull her closer. Burying my face into her neck I nodded and planted a kiss.

"Mm, touch me." She grabbed my free hand and moved it between her legs. I chuckled and teased her through her shorts.

"Barely awake and already trying to sleep with me." She grumbled and grinds herself into my increasing hard-on.

"Don't be annoying." I nip at her neck and slip my hand into her shorts, leaving kisses along her skin.

"Of course my love."

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After having her fill she slipped away for a shower, leaving me sexually frustrated and slightly irritated. She's been more selfish recently but I didn't mind, I loved to please her.

Regardless we went through our daily routine, ending it with us in the kitchen and me making us food. She scrolled on her phone while she drank coffee, although it didn't stay down long. She was up and rushing away to the bathroom.

I was worried so I followed. She had the door locked as she threw up, telling me to 'go away'. I didn't listen and stayed outside the door, waiting for her to let me in. When she did, I found her leaning against the wall looking messy.

"Aw princess, you're not feeling well?" I grabbed a rag from the cabinet and wet it with cool water. She shook her head and lurched forward, throwing up nothing violently.

I gathered her hair and held it back for her, rubbing circles on her lower back as she relieved herself. It took a while but she calmed down a bit, allowing me to wipe the sweat from her face and neck gently. She stood and brushed her teeth with a large scowl.