January 21, 2023
Insecurities....
Growing up, I was always the "fat girl." Most of the women in my family were big, and I refuse to accept that as my faith. I tried everything—every diet you can imagine—and although I lost weight, I always gained it back.
Whenever I call myself fat, people immediately correct me and tell me I am not. At this point, I'm convinced it's either body dysmorphia or someone is lying to me.
When I thought of writing again, I didn't want to focus on saying the right thing that people wanted to hear. I wanted to tell the truth. My truth.
My weight has held me back in so many ways. I may not be 200 pounds, but I feel like it. I avoid taking pictures when I go out, and I deliberately do not look in mirrors unless I have to. The last time someone took an "off guard" of me, I was depressed for weeks afterwards.
If I accomplish one thing this year, it's losing weight. It's time to break this cycle of depression and feel beautiful in my skin.
January 22, 2023
(A little venting session)
Anyway... i really want to talk about Mouldy. So Moudly used to be my supervisor. She is a narcissistic toxic bipolar bad boss. I literally cant stand her , because even though she is no longer my supervisor, she is 'friends' with my new supervisor and my supervisor is so dumb, has half of a brain and basically eats up everything Mouldy tells her and does everything she wants her to do. So it's like even though i am not directly interacting with Mouldy, she influences a lot of shit still.
By the way, NO ONE (except my supervisor and a two other ass kissing coworkers) like Mouldy. Let's call my supervisor 'Simon' since she does everything Simon Says. Its also worse that they not only pick on me, but other younger folks within the company out of pure jealousy. I cant seem to understand why some older people always hate to see young people doing good. It's always something with them. Like, leave us alone! We worked hard for this too!
Btw- my official poetry book 'A Trillion Love Letters' is now available on Amazon😌.
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