Kaeya angst

Cutting.

Art credit : official genshin

( Taking request )

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-Bad grammar
-Bad / good ending
-self harm

Warnings ⚠️
• Swearing
• Suicidal thoughts

Story ⬇️

Diluc and Kaeya joined the Knights of Favonious at the age 16, they wanted to make their beloved father proud. Diluc was always talented and brave unlike kaeya who was often scared and not very talented compared to Diluc. Diluc and Kaeya were inseparable, Diluc would always talk for Kaeya since he was quite shy but after Crepus death, Diluc and Kaeya changed. The inseparable brothers were now separated.

After dilucs absence, kaeya finally became the Calvary knight Captain. "Kaeya congratulations ! Your now the Calvary Knight Captain"-Jean, "W-what ?!.. but why me ...?"-Kaeya, "you've been so loyal to the Knights ! You deserve to be the Calvary Knight Captain !"-Jean. Kaeya couldn't refuse so he accepted, Kaeya didn't think much of it at first until he realised that he had to do tons of paperwork, needing to fulfill people's request and the thing he feared the most, needing to make conversations. It wasn't because Kaeya hated people, it was mostly because of his past. Kaeyas past still haunts him, especially after the 'incident' with Diluc. He would worry if he'd say something wrong or if he was too boring or talked too much. But what can he do anyways ? Being the Calvary knight Captain is the only redemption for his past and for being so weak, right ?.

*2 weeks later*

"Captain Kaeya kill it !"-Knight, Kaeya and the other knights were fighting some hilachurls but even tho kaeyas the Calvary knight, he just couldn't kill it. *Slash* "Captain stop slacking !"-Knight. They got back to the Knights of Favonious as the knights started gossiping about Kaeya. "Jeez he slacks off a lot ! What's wrong with him ?! He shouldn't even be the Calvary knight Captain anyways .."-Knight, kaeya went to his office and thought-"I fucking hate myself. Why am I even the Calvary Captain ... Why didn't I die instead of father ... No wait .. why was I born in the first place .."-Kaeya then took a small knife from his desk and started cutting himself. There were blood on his wrist but he couldn't care less, instead he felt

Reliefed

"I should've done this long ago, I deserve it."-Kaeyas thoughts, Days passed since kaeya has been cutting himself, it became more of a .. obsession. "Kaeya"-?, Who was that ... Who was talking to him ... It sounded so familiar ... "Look at you, being a loser. Maybe the only reason you became a Calvary Knight Captain was because of your brother."-?, "No. Who are you .. your not me."-Kaeya, "You killed your own kind, your a monster. You just want to kill and get rid of everything in the way .. especially, him."-?, "Your not me ... Theres just no way ! I'd never do the kinds of things you said .."-kaeya, "oh don't make me laugh, I am you. I know who you really are."-?, "Just stop ! Why are you acting like the part of me that I hate ?!"-Kaeya, "I wish you would just go away !"-Kaeya screamed as he threw all the things on his desk to the floor. "WHY DO I HAVE TO HEAR YOU ??! IS THERE NO ESCAPING YOU ?!"-Kaeya, "I'm kaeya just like you are now."-? Kaeya couldn't take it anymore, he grabbed the small blade he threw to the floor and started cutting himself leaving his wrist all red.

"It's my fault"

That was the only thing kaeya thought in his head, repeating again and again. After a minute, he stopped but the cuts ... They were too visible, they were too noticeable. He had to hide it. Kaeya had lately been wearing long sleeves,

*At the tavern ( 7:29p.m )*

"What with the sudden change ? You don't often wear long sleeves."-Diluc, "why now master diluc, everyone changes eventually .. there's nothing wrong with hiding ones body parts ..."-Kaeya, "weird."-Dilucs thought, "Hey kaeya, let me see your hands."-Diluc, "huh ? What are y-"-Kaeya, Diluc grabbed kaeyas wrist and tried pulling his sleeves up but kaeya took his hand away and yelled-

"LET GO"

What ... Just ... Happened ?... "Kaeya- I-" before diluc could say anything, kaeya ran out the tavern. "Weird. Very weird, Something's wrong."-Diluc thoughts.

*The next day at the Knights of Favonious*

"Oh, master Diluc ! What are you doing here ?"-Knight, "I'm here to visit a certain someone. Please excuse me, This is an emergency."-Diluc, "jeez alright"-Knight. Diluc entered the Knights of Favonious and knocked on Kaeya office, *knock* "Kaeya ?"-Diluc, no response. After a few minutes, Diluc got impatient and opened the door. Diluc looked around Kaeyas office and checked his desk, *opens drawer* "A blade. A small one covered in blood."-Dilucs thoughts, "we'll need to have a talk Kaeya."-Dilucs thoughts, Diluc looked around the Knights of Favonious to look for Kaeya and found him in the library with Lisa, Jean, Albedo, Barbara, Klee, Amber and Eula. They were having a small celebration for all getting a raise until Diluc opened the door and entered. "Oh my, hello master Diluc. What brings you here ?"-Jean, "Party's over Kaeya. I know what you did."-Diluc. Everyone was confused, what did Kaeya do ? "Aha, what are you talking about Master Diluc ?"-Kaeya, "you know damn well what I'm talking about."-Diluc, after that Diluc grabbed Kaeyas arm once again. "What are you doing ?! LET GO !-"-Kaeya, as much as kaeya wanted to pull away, diluc was much stronger than him. "WAIT, WAIT DONT PLEASE !"-Kaeya, but. It was revealed. Kaeyas wrist was filled with scars everywhere, "What the fuck .. I knew you cut but not this much ..."-Diluc, "Captain Kaeya are you alright ?!"-Barbara, "Oh Barbatos ... Kaeya ..."-Jean, everyone was just too shocked looking at kaeyas wrist. Kaeya pulled away from Dilucs grip and stared at them .. "hey.. I was just recently doing a mission! There were thorns in the area and I got caught in them.. that the only reason why my arms are-"-Kaeya, "Cut the crap kaeya. There's no excuse. We all know now."-Diluc. Oh .. they know ... The room was silent. "I'm sorry .."-Kaeya-

*SLAP !*

"What are you sorry for ??! Don't ever fucking do this again .."-Diluc, "he cares .. what have I done ... Why did I think of him that way ..."-Kaeyas thoughts, the rest all asked if he was ok and that he could talk to them if he felt down or sad. For the first time in a long time, kaeya felt loved, after that kaeya became more sociable but. Did he really stop cutting ? That voice ... It's still there ... What is happening to him ?.. this time tho, he will hide the blades somewhere safer.

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Author note : it's been a while since I've last updated, I hope you like it. Thank you for 500 reads and 20 votes, you make me so happy, I will mostly add diluc in almost all the chapters because I love their family problems and those are perfect for Kaeya angst. Daily reminder I do take request

Hey author here again I RE DID kaeyas excuse IM SO SORRY if the excuse was rlly bad, this was a few months ago where I wasn't so good at writing pls bear with my old writing and how weird it is, I plan on changing them up a bit