It never goes right.

Chapter 12.

It had been almost a year since my hospital visit. I can't recall much that happened during that year. I got pulled out of school for months to recover. I had 2 broken ribs, a dislocated jaw and shoulder and a damaged coxic bone.

My principal told me she had excluded the girls and they were each sent to different schools. There was a police report and they weren't allowed to contact me nor try and find me.

Because of what happened my mum and David had to postpone the wedding.

"I'm sorry you didn't get your big day mum" I cried.

"Don't you be silly, you are my daughter and I would rather be looking after you then getting married and David understands that". I looked at David and he didn't seem to happy about what my mum just said.

Because of my injuries he hasn't hurt me for a long time, mainly because of the hospital visits and constant supervision from my mum.

As I was starting to get better and finally feel like myself again, I felt like all the bad things were over with. I was wrong.

Mum went back to work and David was left alone with me. We had been spending some time together and he was much more different than before, but it soon changed. He asked me how I was feeling today. "Loads better thankyou, nothing really hurts anymore". I smiled.

"Good. That means we can finish what we started". He pulled me off the sofa onto the floor and started taking my clothes off, I tried to squirm out of his grasp but I was still very frale, I didn't want to hurt anymore so I just let him get on with it. I laid there in a ball on the living room floor naked.

"Get up and dressed your mum will be home soon". He demanded.

I went up stairs and had a shower. I sat on the cubical floor and just let the water hit me. I started to think back to what Raegan said that day they all attacked me. Why was I here? What was my purpose in life? To be abused every single day of my life? To hate myself and everyone around me? I didn't want that kind of life. I thought long and hard about what I wanted.

I came to the conclusion that what I wanted more than anything was for it all to be over with and have everyone happy. The only way that could happen would be if I wasn't here.

I turned the shower off and went to my room. I put my favourite summer dress on and did my hair nice, I took my blade and some of my mums tablets she took for her virtago. I swallowed 17 pills out of 20 and slashed my wrists. I collapsed to my floor and started to feel dizzy. The blood poured from my deep cuts and I felt sick. I started shaking violently and was choking on my own vomit. I heard my mum run into my room and she screamed for David's help.

Everything went blurry and yet again all I remember is being wheeled into an ambulance.