All that's on my mind

sleeping angel

Ryder POV

I left the hospital with my bloody scythe. Now I had time to visit Y/n and I did. At first I watched her from the window. So beautiful and fragile... I made my way inside but I let my scythe outside. Y/n was sleeping peacefully and did not notice, how tugged a strand of her soft h/c hair back behind her ear. My hand and the rest of my body were made of bones, as I am a walking skeleton, but that didn't stop me from caressing her cheek. Her skin wasn't like the skin from a supermodel, but it was perfect in its own way, just like everything else about her. I reached for a sketch book and a pen. I did what I could do best and drew a picture of how she was sleeping. I wouldn't have time to color it but I did have time to leave a message on the back of it.

I like it when you sleep, for you are so beautiful yet so unaware of it.

I placed the sketch on her bedside table and left. As soon as my feet were off the ground, I thought of her late-night-call. She loves me. That thought filled my mind and it wouldn't leave again. Honestly, I wished I had kept that sketch for myself, N/n looks like an angel when she is asleep. In the shower, reality crashed over me again and I slid down to the ground. Now sitting in the shower, I started to cry. I couldn't do this anymore, I needed to ask dad for advice and I need it now. Chase eavesdropped on me when I was on the phone and talking to them and he eavesdropped on my conversation with Jake. What if he was in my room while I was with N/n to cheer her up? Does he still trust me? My tears mixed with the hot water and I when left the shower I felt a little better. I got dressed into my pajamas and grabbed my phone. I texted dad, hoping he was awake.

Dad? I need some advice

Best dad
With what?

How do I bet my Alastor?

Best dad
Is it that bad?

Yes. I have zero control over it

Best dad
I escaped my Alastor with a strong mindset.

No you didn't

Best dad
you got me

Best dad
Love-related curses are harder to
control than others

I am all ears

Best dad
To get some control, I think it is best if
you date your crush.

And then what?

Best dad
I think someone has to keep
you from killing others. I think if you
go long enough without killing,
you could beat you curse

Thanks dad

Best dad
And now go to sleep.

That plan sounded easy enough. N/n loves me already and I love her, so being in a relationship could help me. I just had to keep:
- Jake from spilling the tea
- Chase from finding out
- my cover
- Y/n by my side
- my Alastor from killing more people
I put my phone away and tried to get some rest. Somehow I fell asleep but I felt lonely. There was this desire to own N/n. I wanted her all to myself and never let her go. She doesn't know how much power she has over me...does she? She was the definition of an angel. This night I dreamt of her. And I had a good sleep. Hopefully N/n says yes to dating... God I want her so bad...