forever and always(Leah Williamson)

Part 21

I wake up from the most awful sleep ever continuously thinking about what's going on with me and Leah all throughout the night. I need to cut this off before I get hurt, I decide to FaceTime Ella and less before I have to go to training and ask for some advice because their my best friends and will always want the best for me.

"Hey Liv" less says as she answers while sitting next to Ella "hey Liv" Ella reply's "hey guys" "what's up" Ella asks they immediately know something is wrong with me "where do I even begin, I need some advice." "Anything" less says "so basically I've been talking to Leah a lot more and I think I really like her, well I know I really like her but some days she's actually fine with me flirting and all that and the next she acts as if am not even in her presence and it happens to be every time Jordan's around she just blatantly ignores me." "Oh that's not good," less says "but their not together so why is she acting like that?" Ella says with annoyance in her voice. "Exactly, I said to her last night what is it she actually wants and she said she likes me but she doesn't want to lose jordan as a friend." "That's not her problem that's on Jordan, it's not your fault that you like her, I think Jordan that if they were really friends jordan would be happy that Leah has actually found someone that she likes." Ella finishes "and everytime I'm around leah Jordan just gives me dirty looks and it's actually starting to annoy me, I don't know what to do." I say and less responds "honestly I know you like her a lot but if that's the way the both of them are acting then it's better if you just break it off before you get seriously hurt, and even if you do break it off it could knock some sense into Leah about how great of a person you are Liv." "Yeah Liv I agree with less, just focus on your new club just now it will be better for you." "Thank you guys for the advice I miss use." "We miss you too bestie." They both say "okay we'll I better get ready for training and decide what I'm going to say to Leah." "Just be you Liv, see you soon." They say and hang up.

This is going to be one very awkward training session. As I'm getting ready my phone pings

✨Leah
Hi can we talk after training. X
🫶🏼liv
Yeah I was thinking the same

I wonder if she wants to cut it off as well.

At training we are put into teams of 6. I'm with Beth, katie, lotte, rafaelle and manu. Leahs team consists of her jordan, lia, Caitlin, jen and Kaylan. This should be fun. Our mini games kick off. Lotte has the ball who then passes it to Katie who makes a run and passes it to me I then shoot and the ball goes in the top right corner. What a goal. My little team all gather round and congratulate me. Whereas the other team look pissed off. Unlucky. We continue and we are dominating their team Katie scores a belter putting the score up to 2-0 I can see that the other team are starting to get riled up. They have a good chance at scoring as Caitlin strikes the ball but manu saves it. This annoys them more and I can't help but laugh. Rafa gets the ball off Lia and passed it to Katie who then starts her run down the pitch, she is getting closed in on by Leah, and then makes a long pass to me I start running thinking about my next move I see Beth running as well and just as I'm about to pass her the ball, legs come crashing into the side of me. Ouch. I fall the the ground. "Jordan what the fuck." Beth shouts as she runs towards me "I never even tackled her that hard." I hear Jordan say. This girl really needs to get her priorities straight and drop whatever the fuck she has against me. "Hey you okay." Beth says and kneeles down to me "yeah yeah, I'm fine" i say and get up. I can't feel my left ankle throbbing with pain but I'm not letting jordan know she hurt me. I see Leah walk up to jordan. "What is wrong with you." Leah says with her voice raised "nothing wrong with me okay, what's your problem now." Jordan spits back. "Your so pathetic" Leah says and walks towards me "Liv are you okay." "Like I said I'm fine." I say and walk away from Beth and Leah.

Everyone gets back to the locker room to get changed after training. I'm actually really pissed off about earlier jordan had no right to tackle me like that. After this conversation with Leah hopefully jordan can get a grip of herself and stop having it out for me. People have started to leave and Leah approaches me as I'm putting my shoes on "can we talk" "yeah let me put my shoes on first" once I do so we go outside on to the grass to talk, Leah wanted to go somewhere for coffee and talk but I'd rather just get this over with so I suggested we stay here. " so how are you" she asks "been better but it's whatever" I respond coldly "listen leah I think we should just cut this off here before it goes any further neither of us want to get hurt and to be honest I've been hurt, I don't deserve to have to wake up and wonder if your going to talk to me." "Oh so you just want to leave this here? I don't understand I'm sorry for the way I was treating you I'm just confused and I didn't mean to hurt anyone." She says "yeah but that's the problem leah you can't simply pick me up like some toy and put me back down when your confused, I'm worth more than that and I think it's better of if we just leave it here." I say honestly and her head drops down, she composes herself "well if that's what you want I'm not going to stop you." Ouch. Something in me wanted her to tell me everything I wanted to hear like how much she likes me, how much she believes we can work, how sorry she is. But that was it. She wasn't going to stop me. And in that point I felt a little more hurt. "We'll I will see you tomorrow" I say and walk off. Part of me wanted this conversation to go totally different but I knew, Leah wasn't going to change how she was acting.