Savior

The End

~3 months later~

"ANTHONY STOP! PLEASE!" I scream as he grabs his stuff and walks out the door to his car.

I storm out the door and run to his car that he just started.

"Cam, I'm leaving. I can't stay with you anymore."

"I CAN FIX IT! I'LL DO ANYTHING! I'LL GET BETTER! PLEASE!!!!" I scream.

"Even therapy won't help a crazy bitch like you, sorry, but I'm done. You were doing so well."

"Please.." I whimper as he pulls away, leaving me in the driveway as he drives off.

I collapse to the ground. "Its just a dream." I whisper to myself. "Its always just a dream. Its okay." I whisper again as I rock back and forth, head in my hands, pulling at my hair to wake myself up.

Then,

I feel the pain, the shattering of my heart.

Its not a dream.

This time, its not a dream.

I run back inside the house and grab my car keys and phone.

I dial Anthony's number.

After two rings:

"What?"

"I love you" I whisper.

"K."

His end goes silent and the phone call is ended by him.

"I love you." I whisper to the blank phone screen.

I know he isn't there, but it feels good to think he is, to think I'll hear his voice on the other end. The voice I fell in love with, saying "I love you too. You're absolutely gorgeous baby girl." But it doesn't happen.

There's nothing.

Nothing but silence.

The silence that has always made me feel alone.

And that silence sets me free.

I place my phone on my lap and shove the keys into the ignition.

"You were my gaurdian angel, my savior. You had saved me! Well, for the time you cared." I whisper to the phone, still knowing that he's not there, and that he never will be again.

One single tear falls down my already mascara-stained cheeks, followed by many more.

I back out of the driveway as I vigorously wipe the tears away.

I turn the screen of my phone on, but then a picture of me and Anthony pops on the screen. A picture of us hugging, happy, and smiling at the All Time Low concert. One of the best days of my life.

A day of laughs and smiles, no sadness or worry that he would leave me.

Silly me thinking that way.

I dial Anthony's number again.

One ring.

"Hello?" He answers.

"Are you driving?" I ask. Tears flood my eyes.

"No, I'm parked in a store parking lot. Why? Are you?"

"No," I say and pull to the side of the road and park. "but I need to tell you something."

"What?"

"Just listen. Don't hang up. Okay?"

"Okay."

Tears flood my eyes again and the words just fall from my mouth and I don't even know what I'm saying.

"I love you, Anthony. I never stopped, and I never will. Even when I'm gone, and dead, and you're gone, and 500 years from now I will forever love you. You mean the world to me. Literally. You showed me that when you don't love yourself, and you feel like no one loves you, at least one person does. You taught me that when you're on the edge, ready to jump, someone is ready to catch you. That when you feel SO FUCKING ALONE!" I pause, and whisper "you're not."

I pause again, then continue.

"Anthony, you saved me, and not just a metaphor. You ACTUALLY saved me. Someone could've taken me, could've harmed me, but YOU took me to the hospital. You made me fall in love with you again because YOU cared. And for that I am forever thankful. Just don't forget me when I'm gone. I love you, Anthony."

I hang up the phone.

A second later it rings, and a photo of us from Christmas pops onto the screen.

I wanted to marry him, raise a family, I wanted to grow old with him, die at old age knowing I had him.

It was so painful to have my dreams so quickly shattered.

I place the phone on my lap, and I drive.

~A.N.~
THATS IT GUYS :'''''(
Honestly I hope you all like it.
So background quick.
The reason the beginning of this chapter went the way it did is because she relapsed and cut herself. Not bad. But still.
And then... Yea.
I hope you all liked it.
Until next time.
I love you guys.
Bye
Stay beautiful.
•xoxo•
~love, Jacqi ~