Members with benefits // Stray Kids Smut [ENG]

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Seungmin is lying on his bed, his eyes are closed. He has just turned off the TV and he's enjoying a bit of quiet. The day has been intense: they posed all day for a shooting, then participated in an interview and finally allowed themselves something to eat and a long shower.

The dormitory is silent. Felix is surely gone to sleep at Changbin's and Lee Know is already sleeping or maybe reading in peace.

Seungmin tries to listen if any noise comes from next room, but it seems completely empty. Jeongin surely went to Hyunjin's.

He sighs, trying to erase the image of Hyunjin's naked body sinking into the maknae from his mind.

No, it isn't just his imagination: he really saw them once.

They were on tour, Seungmin shared the suite with Jeongin and, after a quick shower, he had gone to the younger's room to ask him what he wanted for dinner. As soon as he opened the door he had found his two friends entwined, it had taken him a few moments to understand what was happening.

It wasn't that he didn't know what habits his members had to "relax," but seeing them with his own eyes was another thing.

«Hyung, come with us» Jeongin had smiled, after a moment of surprise. Hyunjin had slowed down his thrusts but he hadn't stopped either, his hands gripped the maknae's sides, his face filled with excitement. He had met Seungmin's eyes, waiting for a response.

And the main vocalist keeps wondering: what answer did Hyunjin want him to give?

Seungmin had shaken his head and had closed the room door, he left the house without a word. He had simply walked for hours, strolling through the streets of Seattle, where they were for a concert. 

He had been thinking about being asexual for years. He could only masturbate, rarely, but he had never felt attraction to anyone. But after a long time, he had felt something unusual seeing that intimate scene. He had thought of Hyunjin naked on top of him.

And that had messed him up considerably.

After that day, he had spoken to Lee Know about it and realized he probably was demisexual. He was only attracted to people with whom he had a strong emotional connection. 

And so far Hyunjin had been the only one.

He'd been in denial about his feelings for a long time, but after that tour he couldn't anymore.

He had never told Hyunjin, of course, and Lee Know had promised him not to mention it to anybody. It was then that the hyung had refused to have fun with Hyunjin: his friend was in love with the blond prince, it would not have seemed right to Minho to fuck him.

Lee Know also suspected that Hyunjin had feelings towards him, feelings that he can't reciprocate, and therefore playing friends with benefits, or rather, members with benefits would have hurt him.

There must be rules, if you play. No romantic feeling should be allowed.

In any case, Seungmin had always tried to pretend he didn't know that Hyunjin enjoyed himself that way. He was just lying to himself. But when he saw Jeongin moaning under him, covered in sweat, he couldn't ignore the reality anymore.

And damn, it hurt.

It's been a long time now, but Seungmin still struggles to bear the knowing that Jeongin isn't at the dorm, because he knows where he is. And he can't stop thinking about what they're doing. That image continues to haunt him.

He doesn't understand how they can have sex with a friend, it's inconceivable to him, and he just hopes they both will not get hurt.

Anyway, since that day, when he wants to relax, Seungmin can only masturbate by thinking about the blond Prince. He's got some sort of Hyunjin addiction, that, sooner or later, he will be able to call "Love".