Why is she so admirable!?

8. Is it possible to love someone way more than i already do?

>Mayian's pov<

I woke up with a jolt and a gasp left my lips as I sat up. Matthew next to me groaned and sat up while rubbing his eyes. "You okay love? Did something happen?" he said, taking me in his arms. He hugged me while I sobbed softly into his shirt, he told me sweet nothings in my ears and it hurt to see that he was not comfortable with this since his mother and father never him affection before. He held me tight, making me feel safe and he laid me back down next to him to comfort me. 

"I love you May and if it seems that I feel uncomfortable, I can assure you that I don't feel like that. I need you to know that I won't ever feel like that around you because you make me feel happy and free," he said, one of his hands holding one of mine while the other was stroking my hair still. 

"I love you, Matt."

"I love you too sweets."

It had been a month since that happened and now I'm sitting here with Matthew next to me, watching the sunset peacefully. I loved it out here at night when the sun was finally going down after the sun had been up for so long. I wanted this to last forever, but forever is a very long time for all of us. 

 Matthew and I have already passed with all A's for our Junior year of high school tomorrow we have to go back for the first day of our senior year. It was going to be our last year in high school and I was definitely going to miss it. I looked down at my hand and found that his hand was already there where I wanted it to be. It was hard trying to fill out applications for college. I was applying for the same one that Matthew was wanting to go to. He told me to go to my dream college, but I wanted to be near him for the rest of my life. 

I was now getting all of my stuff ready for school since the nighttime had finally passed when I went to bed. I had everything I needed in my backpack and there wasn't anything I was missing. Until, I heard a honk outside my house, signaling me to hurry up. I went downstairs, grabbed a piece of toast, stuffed it in my mouth, and made my way outside to his car. Finally getting in, we took off for the new school year, but it got awkward in the car since Matthew had gotten a job as a daytime uber driver. I don't have a job yet, but I'm still applying around to see if anyone would want to take me in for an interview.

We made it to the school and the girl in the backseat got out and ran to her friends in a hurry. I started laughing and Matthew turned to me with a smirk on his face. "You really don't know how to hold in your laugh do you sweets?" he said trying to hold back his laughter too. "yes I do know how, but it's hard to do that when the girl really did not talk and just ran away from us like we were serial killers or something."

He chuckled and we both made our way into the school, side by side. I looked around and finally found Maria again gossiping about how the new girl at the school was a total slut because she slept with half the guys in the school already. The other thing she was gossiping about was how a girl named Celina, told her that she had killed himself because of the pressure he had at work and at home. I wasn't going to lie I felt bad, but my dad finally started to leave me alone. I gave her my condolences and left for the first period where Mr. Smith would give his grand lecture on how Human Anatomy was the best thing you could ever learn. He loved science and I couldn't blame him because half of the students in the class did too.

Maria sat next to me, of course, and started telling me about what happened at football practice this summer. Apparently, one of the guys injured his ankle and couldn't play anymore, plus he had a total meltdown after. I knew most of the jocks here were hardheads, but Matthew was on the football team too and girls here really do have a soft one for him. He's muscular and sweet and all, but I don't get why the girls drool all over him. Last semester a girl asked if he wanted to go to the senior prom and he flat out said no I have a date when clearly he really didn't.

Everyone thought that he was going with the head cheerleader, but no guess why he's going with me. The nerd that almost everyone asks for their homework and for test answers since they were too dumb to study or didn't have time because they were too busy trying to look good for someone. 

Matthew asked me out to the senior prom because he wanted me to go as not just his girlfriend, but as the person, he planned on spending the rest of his life with. Matthew told me this himself and I loved how he said it to me in the middle of a study session last week. Yes, we still study in the summer. 

>flashback<

We were sitting on my bed, studying for possible tests that Mr. Smith may give us when we return back to school next week. I was turning a page when Matthew spoke up from the awkward silence that had grown very uncomfortable over time. "Hey, I wanted to ask you something before the girls at school start to ask me eventually."

"Sure what's up?" I replied while still looking at the book in my lap. "Do you want to go to the senior prom with me?" he asked setting his book aside. 

"Are you serious? Or are you just fucking with me?" I asked, finally looking up from the book in my lap. He had a serious look and sighed, "look if you don't want to go with me that's fine, I was just thinking since you don't go to dances with anyone else you would want to go with me?"

I was surprised at this and tossed the book aside, practically jumping on him in excitement from the question he asked me. "Yes, of course, I'll go to prom with you dork," I said giggling while he held my waist to gain support on his elbows. "Good, because I have always wanted to go to prom with you since I was 13."

>end of flashback<