"Natalie come on your not gonna be late for school today" I said as I watched Natalie run down the stairs
After school drop off
"Hm, what should I do" I said opening my computer
"Your either really lonely or you need someone to talk to" Jaden said standing there behind me
"Jesus Christ, you scared me but a little bit of both"
"Sorry so what do you have in mind" He smirking
"I was thinking of making a song about my eating disorder" I said
"Are you sure you haven't made a song in 7 years" He said as I nodded
"Okay i'm gonna come back in 5 hours to hear" Jaden said leaving
"You should take it as a compliment If I were you, I would be more confident. your lucky that you're pretty why are you obsessed with your appearance i don't wanna hear it your fine"
"It's been my best-kept secret for a while now
No one ever sees it, but it's all around
It's the dinner conversation no one talks about
Don't know how much longer I can keep this down"
"Beauty is a knife I've been holding by the blade, swallowing my pride so i won't eat anything It's all a lie, honestly, it's eating me alive they're all like"
"Did you change your hair" "Did you lose a little weight You should keep it up 'cause it really looks great"
"I hate that i always look my best when i'm dying on the inside"
"When I'm dying on the inside"
"I wish I could break the mirror
That makes me feel like I should fucking disappear
And drown my demons in a bathtub filled with tears
No matter what I try, they always seem to come back to life
What if I didn't do this to my body?
What if I quit and then you don't want me?
The dinner conversation no one talks about
Don't know how much longer I can keep this down
Beauty is a knife I've been holding by the blade
Swallowing my pride so I won't eat anything
It's all a lie, honestly, it's eating me alive
They're all like
"Did you change your hair?"
"Did you lose a little weight?"
"You should keep it up 'cause it really looks great"
I hate that I always look my best
When I'm dying on the inside
When I'm dying on the inside
When I'm dying on the inside
You should take it as a compliment
If I were you, I would be more confident
You're lucky that you're pretty
Why are you obsessed with your appearance?
I don't wanna hear it, you're fine
Beauty is a knife I've been holding by the blade
Swallowing my pride so I won't eat anything
It's all a lie, honestly, it's eating me alive
They're all like
"Did you change your hair?"
"Did you lose a little weight?"
"You should keep it up 'cause it really looks great"
I hate that I always look my best
When I'm dying on the inside"
"Ah" I sighed as I heard a knock on the door
"It's open!" I said as I saw Jaden closing the door walking towards me
"You know you shouldn't leave the door unlocked" He said
"Whatever now listen to this" I said as he put on my headphones
2 in a half minutes later
"So what do you think" I asked as he took off the headphones and I closed my computer
"I think its great" He said
"What do you mean by great" I asked standing up
"Like great that in my opinion you should publish it and get back in the music industry" Jaden
"I don't know" I said
"I think it's good" He said trying to give me confidence about the song
"Thanks i think i might actually go back into music industry" I said truthfully
"As you should" He said hugging as i hugged him back and heard the door open
"Hm?" I said walking away from Jaden to the door seeing Josh
"Where the hell have you been?" I said yelling at Josh
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Janesa The Virgin
RomanceYou are a girl named Janesa but your friends call you Nessa. You're 21 and your dream is to become a music artist. You're a virgin cause you made a promise with yourself when you got to college that you would save yourself for marriage or when you...
