Superstar

Chapter 84

Im in agonizing pain, the pain is so strong to the point where I think I'm gonna pass out.

"Stay with me moon, we're almost there."

And there I go, my vision goes black and I pass out. My body is extremely cold and I start to hear many voices, the feeling around me isn't very pleasant but after a while, I wake up to see Emma right beside me.

"Ms. Gonzalez, glad to see you awake. How are you feeling?"

"I'm decent but I feel a very strong pressure on my pelvic right now."

"That's normal since you just passed out from all the pain you were under. Your 7 months far along in your pregnancy, so that means your going to start having Braxton hicks contractions. It's very common, although since you are experiencing pelvic pressure are you having any other symptoms?"

"I'm been having low dull backaches, they come and go a lot."

"I can see in your chart that you have a history of high blood pressure. The symptoms that you are experiencing are most likely a sign that your baby is going to be born prematurely. From now on I'm putting you on bed rest, no stress at all. It can harm the baby and affect you even more if you're not careful."

I nod my head and Emma gives me a sympathetic look while holding my hand.

"You'll be okay moon, for once think about yourself. You and the baby are your priorities right now, the rest we will figure out somehow."

"What about Tom? I can't think to see him like that, it's bringing back memories that shouldn't be brought back. I don't want him going down the same path my dad went through, I have to help him somehow."

"You can't help him if you don't take care of yourself first. You know deep down that he wants the best for both of you."

"Your right."

I was given my discharge papers then me and Emma head out. Right now I'm so pissed at Tom, this isn't the time for him to be falling apart on me right now. I understand what he's going through but for god's sake, I already had to deal with a drunk father I can't be going through this again.

It should have been him driving to the hospital, not Emma. I love Tom to death but Honestly, it's embarrassing that Daniel and Emma had to see him so drunk.

Emma helps me out of the car and helps me to the door.

"I'm good Emma, thank you so much. I owe you one, can you please not tell my brother about this? He'll freak on Tom if he finds out."

"My lips are sealed." She signals to me.

I go in and see Tom on the couch and having a serious conversation with Daniel, he looks at me with a sincere look on his face.

"Well that's my queue to leave, don't break the house both of you."

Daniel leaves and tom just keeps looking at me as if he's going to say something. He gets up from the couch and takes a few steps toward me. He tries to place his hand on my arm but I snatch it away from him.

"Don't you dare fucking touch me, the nerve you have to try to talk to me after everything you did? Incase you forgot, I'm still here tom. Your baby is still here, you don't even know what's going on with us."

"I'm sorry-"

"That's all you have to say? I had to fucking pick you up from a bar while I may remind you, I'm still pregnant. I don't know what the hell is going on with you but I sure as hell know that I'm not going through the same thing my mom went through. MY baby will not be traumatized by this shit, like I was." Tears were streaming down my face.

"Moon, I understand that there's nothing I can say for you to understand that I'm deeply sorry. Ever since what happened with jade, I've been having nightmares, the only way I can stop thinking about what happened is when I drink. I don't know what else I can do, I tried everything."

"You should have talked to me about this. We could have figured something out, I've tried to help you, to get you to talk to me but you wouldn't budge. There's only so much I can do."

"I'll try my best for you and our baby-"

"No tom, not only us but for yourself too. I love you tom and I only want what's best for you. I wouldn't be around if I didn't love you, it's hard to see you like this. I'm here to help you but if you'll let me."

"God I love you so much, I'm so sorry for having to put you through that. I'll go to the therapy, I promise, just please don't lose faith in me." He wraps his arms around my neck and hugs me tightly.

"I'll be staying at Emma's house for a while, I don't have to explain myself. You already know why, the doctor says I can't put myself through any more stress and I need to be on bed rest for the remainder of my pregnancy. You can come to visit me I'm not gonna deny that but I need someone to help me and you can only help me, Tom, if you focus on yourself for now."

"I understand, what did the doctor tell you? It's okay if you don't want to tell me-"

"Our baby is going to be born prematurely and it's a girl."

His eyes light up immediately and he kisses me so hard to the point that I can't breathe.

"Holy shit I'm going to have a daughter!" He yells out loud causing me to smile.

"Can you at least stay the night with me? I need you moon, I won't hesitate to ask for help. I mean it this time"

"Alright, just promise me you won't put me in this situation again. It was hard seeing you like that in general."

"I promise, thank you for giving me another chance. You won't regret it."

Hopefully, this won't backfire on me, Tom doesn't lie or break his promises. He's human after all and we all make mistakes, but there's up to a certain point where it's not even a mistake anymore. I hope it doesn't get to that extent.

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Sorry it took me so long to post, I lost my ideas that I wrote down in my notes. I had to think of other ideas.