" so this is when I should stop . " Ni-ki inhales a deep breath then releasing it after , still feeling the tightness in his chest as he witness you and Jay.
He clearly saw you kiss your ex back . Now, he's blaming himself , why did he looked back ? Was he expecting you to follow him?
He was betrayed by his feet , he couldn't move. But he needed to. So he closed his eyes and tried to erase the scene that's happening in front of him.
You, to him at first was just a happy crush. You two are playmates when you're younger and you always had that special place in his heart . He always admit it to himself that he got a crush on you secretly but he didn't knew that the tiny little feeling could developed into something else.
He always teases you just for you to give him some attention . And he loves it when you're always sensitive and always gives him the reactions that he wants.
Actually , he has forgotten his feelings for you when you two hadn't seen each other for years. He was busy in school but he still thinks of you sometimes. But when you came back , it seems like all the memories and all the feelings he had for you before also came back. Not just that feeling , but this time , a stronger one.
But then, with what's happening right now, it seems that he lose hope.
" Ni-ki! "
The guy halted when he heard your voice. You were at the door and was ready to run after him but he just only took few steps away from the house.
The boy didn't looked back, he was waiting for you to talk.
" Jay and I .. as I said , we already broke up. " You started but you feel that there's a lump on your throat while saying those.
" But that's not what I saw earlier, y/n. " He softly says , as if he's defeated. He felt helpless.
You were unable to talk when you heard those. It's your fault for kissing Jay back. It's your fault for still having feelings for him when you and Ni-ki already had a thing.
Well, what is really your relationship with him ? You're not lovers yet , you're far from that at this point. But you can't be just friends.
" Ni-ki... "
" No, don't try to explain anymore y/n . I know that you still love him. And I know where I stand. I'm just a nobody to you ."
He finally started to walk away. You want to follow him but Jay is holding your wrist . He won't let you go , now that he feels threatened and knew that he already have a rival on you. Love is a competition for some and for someone like Jay, he would never accept defeat.
" Let's go y/n. That guy doesn't deserve you. All you need is just me. No one else ." Jay reminded you . You just looked at Ni-ki going away.
You knew that you'll regret it one day. But you chose not to run after him.
" Maybe it's for the better. " You simply said to yourself as you released yourself from Jay.
