my abusive life.....

Crazy

The ambulance came I watched as they took care of John I feel so terrible I was upstairs and he was just down here dying. Who he fuck would hurt him ? I need him I walked over to Rita and she hugged me I was crying my eyes out then my babies started kicking

"Ow" I said holding my stomach

"What's wrong ?" Rita said

"Their kicking me" I looked over at the ambulance and they put John in there and somebody yelled out he's not breathing.

"What ?" I yelled and cried "make him breathe"

Rita pulled me away and took me in the house

"What are you doing Rita ?" I said crying

"Melanie you don't need to be out there and all that is happening" she said blocking the door

"Rita what the fuck my boyfriend just got shot stab whatever and they said he wasn't breathing and you want me to stay out of it fuck no Rita get the fuck out of my way" I said crying

"No Mel your already about to blow the fuck up this is too much for you ill take you up there later ok ?"

"No no no fuck you Rita" I said throwing a cup at her

"Melanie calm down" she yelled

"Fuck you, where is mom and dad cause you not being a sister right now your being a dumb bitch" I said yelling at her hurting her feelings

"Mel your mad I get that but I don't want you to be out there while that is happening"

"Fuck you he's dying Rita, he's fucking dying he's leaving me and my babies oh my god" I said putting my head on the counter "he didn't even meet them yet"

Rita walked over to me and held me while I cried "he's not dying Mel and he is going to meet his kids it's going to be ok"

"Get off me" I yelled

I walked upstairs and called my mom
"Hello ?"

"Mommy" I cried out

"Baby what's wrong ?"

"Can you come home please ?" I said crying hard

"Melanie what is wrong ?"

"Something happened to John he's on his way to the hospital he's dying mommy oh my god" I said crying so hard I couldn't breathe

"Alright Melanie you need to breathe calm down ok ? I'm on my way"

I ran to the toilet and threw up why is this happening to me ? I heard a noise come from my closet I walked out and as soon as I got to the door somebody grabbed me and put a knife to my throat

"Shut up or ill kill you" the person said

I held on to my stomach then my phone rang

"Don't answer it"

"Who are you ?"

"Shut the fuck up"

I wanted to scream for Rita but the knife to my throat and my babies were the only thing that was really on my mind