Gloom & sunshine

Chapter 2: Insecurity

Geoff was picking at his bottom lip. Awsten hated seeing him do that, he knew it meant Geoff was stressed and he didn't like it when Geoff was stressed.  He watched the guitarist pace from where his head was stuck to the surface of the table. His entire body felt heavy, he wanted to close his eyes and sleep. He had turned off his phone, it sat away from his head. He sighed and finally closed his eyes, kind of regretting telling Otto he wanted to go on stage tonight.

Geoff turned from picking his bottom lip to chewing on it. He was watching Awsten, he could feel the storm forming over his friend. He knew something had been up with Awsten for a little over a week now, but Geoff knew that if the blue haired singer wanted to talk about it, he would. He twisted his fingers anxiously, wanting to talk to Awsten, wanting to ask him what happened when the two left the stage, but, again, he didn't. Awsten was very private about his emotions sometimes, and Geoff respected that as much as he could. But it hurt him to know Awsten didn't trust as much anymore,

"Hey," He gave Awsten a light smile when those dual colored eyes opened and looked at him. Geoff always liked Awsten's eyes. "You alright? Where's Ciara?" He had noticed she wasn't around the past few shows, and if the two had gotten into a fight, it could really fuck with Awsten's stage presence. Geoff's worry at his lip increased when he saw Otto's eyes glance to Awsten over some book Rian Dawson had lent him.

"Had to go back home." Awsten mumbled, he didn't lift his head, but averted his gaze from Geoff's.

'Oh, so that's why he's so moody. He misses her...'Geoff just nodded, looking down at his hands, and began playing an imaginary piano on his lap.

"Hey, I don't... I don't want to play 21 Questions tonight." Awsten finally lifted his head.

Geoff looked surprised. "Why not?"

"I just don't..." He looked down at his lap, avoiding looking at any of them. Otto didn't say anything. He didn't even look surprised.

"Okay, what do you want to play instead? I'll go hunt down the back track in our trailer." He smiled lightly to Awsten, as he stood. Awsten glanced up in time to see that sweet smile and felt his heart squeeze, he looked down to his hands to hide the flush settling on his cheeks.

"No Capes?" He asked quietly.

The brunet was surprised, had to think about where that track was. "Sure, let me go see if I can find it, okay?" He walked over and patted Awsten's shoulder, trying to give him a smile, but the singer was refusing to look at him. Geoff's sunshine smile faltered and he felt his heart sink. "O-Okay, I'll be right back..." He glanced at Awsten one more time before leaving the room, a security guard helping him sneak out to where their trailer was, unseen.

"No Capes?" Otto was looking at Awsten with a slight smirk.

"Shut up. Don't say anything to him, you swore."

Otto shrugged, his smirk now a grin. "I didn't say I would say anything, did I?"

Awsten sighed and places his head back on the table. "Break ups suck, man..."

"Yeah, but you'll be okay in a few days. You weren't happy anymore, right? Now you can be."

"Mmm..." Was all he could say, staring at the empty couch, where Geoff had been sitting. He wanted his human version of the sun to come back, but... also didn't want to deal with the guilt he felt every time he looked at Geoff... where was Geoff?

"Hey, you okay, babe?"

Geoff looked over to see Jack Barakat standing in the opening of their trailer. Geoff nodded, looking back down into the case he had cracked open.