Always Waiting || MYG

51. Tell her that you want to give this marriage a chance.

Yoongi pov

The entire car ride, she made it hell for me. But her laughter. A smile came to my remembering her laugh.

"OH MY GOD. Min Yoongi is smiling to himself." Hoseok said as he entered my cabin. "May I know who is the reason behind this smile?" He asked while wiggling his eyebrows.

"It's...no one" I said as I started to working on my laptop. "Both, the husband and the wife are quite similiar. Being lost in each other's thoughts and when they caught they pretend to hide it just like teenage love." Hoseok said causing my fingers to stop. She was thinking about me?

I quickly shrugged the thought and replied, "It's nothing like that." 

"Yoongi, I have known you for years now, and I very well know that you don't look into people's eyes when you're lying." He said making me sigh.

"I can't help it Hoseok. It's like she is pulling me towards her." I finally let it out, it's no use of hiding things he won't leave until I say what he wants to hear.

"Then why are you stopping yourself?" He asked as he took a seat in front of me.

"Because I have to hate her. Everytime I do things to make her hate me, but she doesn't she keeps on coming back to take care of me. I felt so gulity when I came to know what had happened to her son and I called her a whore. I wanted to apologize but I didn't but I have to hate her, I can't like her, she is the reason the girl I loved  isn't there with me anymore."

"Loved. Past tense. You have already moved on Yoongi you just need to convince your heart." 

"I can't Hoseok. I can't. It's too late now. She already regrets this marriage. The things she said last night are still ringing in my head. I told you Hoseok, I told you that I'll give a chance to the marriage. Last night when that girl was kissing my neck all I could think about was her waiting at home for me. I left that girl for her Hoseok, and went home to her, just to hear that she regrets this marriage now. I wanted her to fix me, but she has given up now. In the morning also when my dad started to scold me for her disappearance all I could think about was to hurt her the way I am hurt. I wanted her to feel the pain. I am a bad person. I left her to get raped, yet she served me food, she behaved as if everything was okay. She deserves way better. I'm no longer the old Yoongi. She knows that too, she told me she has given up, that she-she r-regrets-" I was cut off by Hoseok. 

"Yoongi, you didn't leave her to get raped. You called me and told me to save her. You just wanted to seem like a bad person in front of her. But deep down you know that you can't hurt her." Hoseok said.

"But last night-" 

"You're crazy." Hoseok cut mme off. 

"Huh?" 

"You were extremely drunk last night, Yoongi. You had hickeys over your neck. That's when you decided to talk to her? What a great timing you chose. What else would she think other than her husband is still cheating on her?" 

I was shocked. The hickey. Is that why she behaved that way?

"Talk to her Yoongi. Tell her that you want to give this marriage a chance." He said.

I nodded my head, "I'll think about it."

"This is not a movie, Yoongi. Stop making things complicated unncessarily. Go home and tell her straight away that you want to be with her. She regrets being in this marriage because she thinks you don't want her. But tell her you want her. Tell her you want to be with her, forever. Trust me it's not too late."