𝐊𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐌𝐘 𝐄𝐗, b.e

𝟎𝟐𝟎. . . awkward!

CHAPTER TWENTY
awkward !

"hey selene?" i hear from the crack in door. i take of my headphones, and look away from the screens.

"what?" then i realise who's at the door. gasping, i get up and throw myself at her. billies back!

i go into kiss her, but she pulls away.

"bil? baby where'd you go?" i hear a deep voice, then the taller guy comes around the corner. matthew.

i look at billie confused and she shakes her head frowning. she takes a deep breath then turns around.

"matt! im coming!" she's sounds happy as she says it.

how the fuck did he get here?

"how the fuck did he get here?" jamie whispers in my ear as we sit on the sofa.

billie and matthew are cuddled up on the sofa. it's disgusting.

"that's what i wondered." i whispered back and bea came in with a bowl of popcorn surprised when she sees our guest.

"hey?" she looks at him confused. matthew gets up and puts his hand out to shake her hand.

"i'm matthew—" then he smiles. "—billies boyfriend."

beas face drops as she exclaims, "what?" she looks at me and i shake my head looking at her seriously.

she giggles, then takes his hand. "sorry, i'm just so shocked billie has a boyfriend after all the time she spends here. you know?" bea raises her eyebrows and i can't help but smile.

i look over at billie, she's looking at me like she wants to kill me. so i look down, smiling at my hands.

"i know! she can't keep away from you guys." it's more like she wants to get away for you.

he goes and cuddles back with billie, i'm cold but i'm hot. not literally, i'm jealous and angry who the fuck does he think he is. walking into my home unannounced, fucking cunt.

asshole. i'm gonna—

"calm down." jamie voice echoes in my ear as his hands cover my tightly clenched ones. i didn't realise but i'm squeezing my hands so tight, i'm piercing my skin.

"breathe, selene. i got you." he pulls me into his chest.

the lights go off as the movie starts.

i lay their in his arms wishing they were hers.

two movies down, he's still here. i hate it, just leave already. every so often i here, billie laugh lightly as he kisses her.

it makes me cringe.

jamie left to go get high about half an hour ago. it doesn't sound like a bad idea. being stoned right now sounds so good.

i get up from the couch, i don't look back but i can feel her watching me as i leave the room.

i go into my room to put my converse on, i put on some joggers and i make my way to the roof top.

"jamie?" i call for him.

"over here!" he responds and i follow his voice. he's sitting on the edge, dangling his feet over it.

he has a blunt in his hand, i go and sit on the edge next to him.

"i don't like him." he says as she exhales and the smoke comes out of his mouth.

"me neither." i hold my hand up for him to give me the blunt.

he scoffs and shakes his head, "jamie, don't be a dick."

"you sure?"

"yep, give me it." he gives it to me and i inhale and exhale then repeat. he snatches it from my hands.

"this shits strong, slow down."

"fuck off." i scoff.

"selene." he says sternly.

i mumble a sorry and i sit even closer next to him dangling my feet too.

"this fucking sucks." i pull my knees up to my chest.

"the view doesn't though." and he's not wrong the view of la up here is beautiful.

"mhmm—" i look at him and he's moving closer. is he trying to kiss me?

i take the blunt out of his hand, putting it in my mouth then standing up on the ledge.

"selene, what the fuck are you doing?"

"i'm having fun!" i shout, as i pretend to balance on a beam.

"selene, get down! that's a six story drop!"

"since when were you such a party pooper!" i jump down off the ledge, throwing the blunt to the ground.

i barge past him and sit on the unwanted sofa on the roof.

this night sucked.