𝐊𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐌𝐘 𝐄𝐗 | ❝ so glad people told me you wanted to kill me ❞
in which, billie finds a girl on the internet. rumours are spreading that the girl wants her dead.
but that's entirely not true.
billie eilish x female oc
CHAPTER THIRTY time stood still. (tw: suicide attempt, drug abuse)
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billies house was small but homely in a way, i'll never understand completely. my family home back in london was broken and holding on by the seems when i left to move to la. my family never agreed to letting me more across the world with a boy i barely knew.
i was so conflicted, i knew i wanted too but leaving my little sister. that was the thing that held me back the most. she's probably around fourteen now, i only contacted her around birthdays and christmas although i got no reply.
"hey, sel? you still in the car with me?" her voice takes me out of my thoughts.
"oh— yeah. sorry." i reply, we're just riding around la in dragon when billie need to pick something up from her house. "what did you say?"
"just if you wanted to come inside?"
"oh, i'm good. i'll stay here." i give her a faint smile.
"okay," she leans over and gives me a kiss on the cheek, which makes me properly smile. she sees, smiling herself.
billie got out of the car pulling her hood up, walking down the driveway. it's been a few weeks since her birthday, a two days away from new years.
things happening this year are stressing me out fully. now that i'm sighed to a label, they want an album by april. fucking april. there's no way in hell i'm going to manage that.
the nightmares are coming back too. after all this time, they still haunt me. the terrors are worse in the dreams, than they were but they feel so real. the flashing pictures of memories hold me down.
but it's going to fine. i'm going to be fine.
pulling my knees up to my chest as i pull my phone out of my pocket, just scrolling on instagram. when bea ringtone of "getaway car" starts to blast (she made me do it because she wouldn't stop crying to the damn taylor swift song).
i answer straight away, pushing my phone to my ear.
"selene, you need to come home now." bea scares me with her tone.
"what? why? what's happened?"
"it's jamie. he won't wake up!" her voice breaks, as she can't withhold her sobs any longer.
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i didn't think life could stop in a matter of moments but it did.
as soon as pushed the apartment door open, all i could hear was my heart beat drumming through my ear. billie was holding my hand, as i dragged her down the hallway.
"bea? pey?" the words fell from my mouth.
"in here!" sammy voiced called out to me, from jamie's room.
i let billies hand go as a rushed into the room, the panic in the room was suffocating.
jamie unconscious on the floor, a bottle of sleeping pills empty.
i fall to my knees next to him, "how long has he been out?"
"i— sel."
"answer the fucking question!" my eyes watered, holding his head in my hands.
"i don't know, like 2 minutes or longer. i don't know!" pey rushed out.
"call a fucking ambulance!" i shout as i turn around, making eye contact with billie. a tear falls down her cheek as she pulls out her phone and walks out the room.
"sammy, help me sit him up and give me that trash can." the rest of group stood still, needing to snap out of whatever daydream they're in.
"for fucks sake! just do it!" they all snap into action.
i repeatedly try to make his body refuse the drugs and after a few minutes and tries it works. his body comes back to life, heaving and coughing the toxic substances in his body.
"jamie." i wrap her around him as i cry, sobbing at the near loss. "why would you do that? why the fuck would you do that!?"
that when the paramedics come through the door with their kits. "ma'am we're going to need you to step back." one of them says to me and i oblige.
stepping back as a hand touches my arm, i turn around to see her looking at me with teary eyes filled with an endless amount of emotion.
we don't say anything but we wrap our arms around eachother, i bury my head in her neck.
"i love you." billie says as she kisses by forehead, i hold her tighter.
"please don't ever leave me." i whisper.
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