I stood there pouring my heart out to Lucifer. and the pain I was feeling was something I dint want to experience. and I wanted it all to end but I knew I had to do this in order to be able to breathe and move on.
"It hurts me, just how much I ache for you Samael. how much I wanna be with you but I get blown off for some pornstar turned cop." I cried
"don't call me that," he says
I wiped my eyes which was useless cause more just took their place.
"is that really important right now?" I asked
"no.. but I prefer Lucifer," he says
I shook my head at him.
"Detective is just different I mean something about her attracts me to her," he says
"and why was I brought into your life? was I only here to be your bed warmed when the detective wouldn't give it up?" I asked
"No you are not in my life for that reason," he says
"then why are you playing with not only my heart, and feelings but my being?" I asked
"I am not trying to hurt you or play with you in any wrong way. and if you feel that way I'm sorry" he says
"you said you never lie yet you are standing here before me lying" I say
"I am not" he says
"Ok... then tell me Lucifer do you love me?" I asked
he went quiet not saying anything.
"see there is something you and I have in common," I say before I walked back towards the elevator.
"and what is that?" he asked
"the people we want to love us don't." I say
"she is still with detective douche." he says
"yeah they are married and are never divorcing and no matter how many times you try to weasel your immortal ass in between them to destroy them you will not succeed. you will only make her hate you... like I am trying my damndest to do" I say
I stepped on the elevator and looked at Lucifer.
"have fun being the satanic manwhore who's gonna be hated by the one person who doesn't love him and never will. the one who'd never ever Ever believe him when he shows his true side. the one who wants to lock you up in a crazy house" I say
when the doors closed I slouched back against the rail and sobbed whole heartly.
