Failure

Chapter 12: The End

After that eventful day, I learnt a lot. I just used it as fuel for me to do better. After that day, I had one more last assignment for my internship. Believe it or not, my internship lasted almost three months, and today is the day I can finally put that day behind me. It's my last official day at my internship. And guess what I needed to do? Take pictures again. I knew from that day alone, I knew what I needed to do to improve myself. 

The first thing I did, was the plan. Plan how am I going to execute this task. Long story short, the office was having a gathering and I was in charge of taking pictures. I decided to check back the pictures from that day and tell myself what I needed to do better. After that, I knew what I fucked up on. So, event day. I was a bit late, but manage to get there on time. The event started, and it was time for me to shine. I just told myself, "you can fucking do it." I knew I learnt from that day. As the day went on, I knew that people are going to like the pictures which I took. Not gonna lie, I felt a bit cocky saying that, but I knew I am confident in my abilities. I knew that I put that "infamous day" behind me. 

Once the event ended, it was time for me to enjoy myself and enjoy the food. But before showing that, I showed it to my boss one last time. He gave me the green light. I can see through his face that I manage to do something good. I finally put that demon behind me. I manage to overcome an obstacle. I am going to miss this place. I was a bit emotional but I knew that for me, I just completed one chapter in my life and now it was time for me to move on. 

Now it's onwards to my holiday where I just had a week off. I mean, that's all I needed. Now it's time for me to complete my diploma. 

6 subjects stand between me from accomplishing my goal. A law subject (which was a bloody pain in the arse), media issues, graphic design, filming subject, some subject learning about the history of my country and an environment subject - where we learn about how to take care of the earth and stuff like. Media issues were with my favourite lecturer, Mr Bawang. The subject might have been tough, but weirdly enough, I enjoyed his subject. It was rather interesting to learn about issues going on around the world. 

Well, you can say this is the end game. What's next for me? Well, maybe a degree? Or for me to work. I knew that I just needed to pass these 6 subjects ahead of me. You can say that I enjoyed myself and was suffering at the same time. Subjects such as filming and media issues were my favourites. I enjoy showcasing my ideas behind a camera, the same as I use my guitar to show my ideas. For the first time, I manage to direct a music video for a local artist from my country. Not gonna lie, it was scary, but I use the knowledge I gained from Mr Edward. Not only directing but editing and being a director of photography. It might have been a challenge for me but I knew I had a game plan, and I knew how I was going to execute it. Whereas media issues, might be a boring subject, with the help of Mr Bawang, I enjoyed it. Graphics design was like hell for me. I am the type of guy who's not good at designing. I mean, if you're a creative person, it comes in different varieties. You can be musically talented, excel in arts and design, and many more. I'm more towards the filming/photography side, followed by music. The environment subject might've been a waste of time - but it's always good to learn more about our Earth. So, I just thought about it how can I improve our Earth as an individual. History about our country... well it's pretty much going over what we all learnt when we were in school last. But let me tell you one thing, this law subject was a bloody pain in the backside for me. I'm just glad that my teacher was awesome. To describe her, she's like that aunty at the parties who always checks up on you - whether that's to check if you've eaten, going home safe, checking up on yourself, too. But she's always in a good mood every time you see her. Thanks to her, the subject was not too bad. 

Towards the end of the term, I travelled back to my other country, for holiday. It was my first holiday ever since 2018. So I knew that I had to get most of my work done, or nearly done, so I didn't have to panic at the end. It was a bit sad that I won't be seeing some of my lecturers again. Especially with Mr Bawang and my other lecturers who taught me. But I know there'll be other days when I visit them. 

Well, my last term might've been a challenge for me, but I enjoyed it. I cherished some moments I'll never forget. Such as with me doing well in my music video, and it was voted "the best music video out of the entire class". But I have to give credit to my group mates who helped with that. There's no I in team. To do something, it's good to have a team behind you. So, the day I got my results, I was shitting myself. But when I saw that I passed everything, I was happy. I celebrated by getting absolutely bollcoks (to get drunk) the day after I got my results. I still don't remember what happened that day, but I guess the nights you don't remember are the best nights of your lives, right? 

So the end is here, I finally completed a total of 3 years and 8 months of studying. What's next for me? Well, let's see where life takes me. 

Added note: thank you to everyone for taking the time to read my story. I apologise for not posting that much. But stay tuned for more!