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˚₊♥︎ Chapter 15 ♥︎₊˚

Fifteen butterflies

~In the evening~

~Y/N POV~

I haven't got out of my bedroom since I ran away from Chishiya. His words still echoes inside my brain, inside my heart. I haven't catched feelings for Y/N. Never have. This is just a part of my plan. It hurts so badly. I've been a fool, thinking all of this was real. I thought I was the queen, and now I'm back at the pawn.
It must have been fun from his point of view. Watching me slowly fall for his sweet words, his calculated gestures, his planned situations. I fell for it so easily, giving him my body, my soul and my memories. The fact that he went that far, playing along for weeks now, is heart breaking. Maybe he wasn't supposed to go that far ? But when he discovered the taste of the innocence of that girl, that girl that so deeply thought that her feelings were mutual, he took pleasure to it and decided to play more ? It wouldn't be surprising ; Chishiya loves games. Was I one of his games ? Probably.
I was so confident, feeling superior because I knew that I wouldn't be sacrificed like Usagi and Arisu, because I knew about the true plan, that I hadn't imagined that something else could be happening above me. I didn't feel the strings getting wrapped around my wrists as I became, slowly but surely, Chishiya's marionette.
Talking about my wrist, I've been staring at it for hours now. The butterfly hasn't left. It's still remaining clinged to my veins, quietly sucking my blood, desperatly reaching out to my heart. In a certain way, it's like Chishiya's watching me, making sure that I still have feelings for him. Of course I do. I can't get rid of them so easily. I gently rub my skin with my thumb in hope that it'll someday go.
Someone suddenly knocks at my door. I don't answer. No matter who it is, I don't want to see anyone right now. There's a few seconds of silence before a voice echoes from the other side.

Kuina : It's not Chishiya. It's me, Kuina.

A sigh escapes from my lips as I close my eyes. New tears run on my cheeks ; They got pushed by the blink of my lazy eyelids. I guess it's just more water landing on my wet pillow after all.

Y/N : If you have something to say, please say it from behind the door. I don't want to see anyone right now.

Kuina : Ok.

She remains silent a few seconds before talking.

Kuina : The plan is over, Usagi and Arisu are in the hands of the militants now.

I hum loudly, making sure that she can here me.

Kuina : And Chishiya found where the cards are hidden, he went to take them. So...

She stutters a bit, hesitant. I can feel the worry in her voice. Finally, she finishes her sentence.

Kuina : ...we're leaving. The Beach. Right now. I know you don't want to see Chishiya again after what he said, but if you want to escape this place before it's too late, we'll be next to Hatter's room.

I groan, slowly getting out of bed. In the window, I can see my pitiful reflect. My red puffy eyes, my wet cheeks, my tangled hair. Do I wanna go ? No, certainly not. Should I go ? Yes, indeed. The Beach is gonna implode, I can't stay here. I might be sad, hurt and heart broken, but I'm not reckless. My survival is more important than any fight with Chishiya. I'll just get out of here with them, and if I want to, I'll go on my own after. Before meeting them, I survived alone. I can do that again. I sigh.

Y/N : Wait two seconds, I'm coming.

I drag feet to the door and slowly open it. Kuina is standing there, nervously biting her fake cigarette. She sighs in relief as I appear in front of her.