(there should probably be a trigger warning here, but i never really pay attention to those and end up getting triggered regardless so i never know when to use them?? heh anyway--)
I stared into their brown eyes.
They smiled back at me
You don't deserve to smile.
Their smile faltered
You're worthless, a burden.
They failed to keep their smile
You're a liar.
They only looked at me, wide eyed, pained
You didn't stop to think that maybe you're the bad one, did you?
They looked guilty, ashamed
You wanted to think everything was okay when you knew it wasn't
They didn't deny it, just stood there, shaking
You didn't ask her what she wanted.
They tried to blink back tears
You don't deserve to hurt.
They looked like they believed that
Why doesn't she hate you?
They shook their head, unsure
You hurt her.
They broke, crying
But I didn't care.
They tried to swing at me
Funny, I was doing the same.
Their fist slowed
Mine met the cool feeling of glass.
They just stood there, crying
It seemed I was too.
After all, they were my reflection
I was them.
They couldn't hurt me
I lowered my gaze.
Their pale skin
Their- my scars, though they didn't feel my own.
I let out the hurt I wasn't meant to feel
Broken.
They laughed manically
The sound felt foreign.
Yet the feeling didn't
I guess I'll never change.
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