Min Yoongi is one of the members of the global superband, BTS. He's a rapper, songwriter & a producer--the best of the best. He loves his craft but doesn't believe in love. Reason? A heartbreak from the woman he thought would love him for him.
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"Hi, eomma! How are you?" I told her before putting down the bouquet I bought her. "Happy birthday!"
I smiled at her photo and sat on the grass. It's been a decade since she passed away and every year I wished she was still with me so I can make her her favorite cake and blow candles. But no matter how much I pray, I know she won't be able to come back.
"How are you up there? I'm seriously jealous of everyone you're with right now. They get to be with you and hear your beautiful voice." I started talking to her while lighting up a candle.
"You know, things are crazy right now with work. Can you believe it? They threw me out as punishment. But I'm beginning to think that it must be a present for me. You know why, eomma? Because I met someone there. Someone who's creating big changes in my life right now. It's scary how much a person can actually make an impact in someone's life. I never imagined I could let another person enter in my life the way he did. Did you do this? Did you pull some strings in heaven so we could meet? Is he going to stay for good? I said I don't need someone in order for my life to be complete. But why do I have this yearning? Why am I hoping? I'm not afraid to get hurt, eomma. I'm not afraid to be alone. The greatest loss I had was you. I know I should not expect anything. I was okay by my own. But meeting him suddenly sparked a need within me. A need that he could only fulfill. I want to hate the idea. The idea of having someone you can rely on. I had myself for that throughout this years, why would I need anybody else? I have plenty of questions and there are no answers yet.
This is one of those moments when I wish you're here with me. To help me seek for the answers. Or for you to answer them. I wished you've seen me grow up. I wished you were there for all the milestones I reached. I wished I could've have shown you to the world and be proud while doing so. I wished you've met Yoongi so you can appraise him for me. But I know I can't have all of these now. And that I have to go through this life without you. I was merely going through it and I wish this will change now. And I hope it'll be because of him."
I took a deep breath and wiped the tears that had started to fall. I silently cried for my eomma, for my loss, for my struggles. I silently cried for my desire to attain joy and love. I silently cried for my life.
I let the tears fall until the last drop.
My phone suddenly rang and saw Yoongi calling.
"Hello, Nari? You said you'll send me your location. You haven't yet. Can you share it now? I'll pick you up." He said.
"Hey...yeah, I'm sorry I forgot. Wait, I'll send it now." I told him and did something on my phone to send my current location. I actually don't know if it's a great idea for him to come over. But I also thought that it will be nice for him to meet my eomma already.
"Got it. I'll be there asap. See you, sweetheart." My heart always melts when he calls me that.
