Blood dripping all over the floor... My wrist hurt, but at the same time it didn't.
Yea I know, cuts are supposed to hurt, except at that same time,I didn't feel shit. I just felt so alone at the time. I hate myself.
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It was 6:00 am. I thought might as well get ready, and try hiding everything that looked like it hurt . Especially my wrists.
I put on a big sweater with long sleeves, it wasn't hard to find one, because mostly every sweater I owned is long sleeved and fit me big. Then, I put on some leggings and my All Star High Tops. Then I just let my hair straight.
I was walking to school, almost crying..but I knew that if I cried, people would ask what's wrong. Maybe not..I mean no one cares.
I went to history class late. I walked in and everyone was staring. Some giggled,but I didn't give a shit.
I ran to my seat ignoring everyone.
Yes, Jesse was there, in his seat.
"Hey Ivy, how was school yesterday? Sorry I didn't co-" He stopped talking after he saw tears coming out of my eyes.
"Woe, what's wrong!?" He said surprisingly sounding worried.
"You better tell me what's wrong! And I'm not taking any of that "I'm fine" bullshit. I wanna know what happened and I want to know now."
There it was. I was feeling worried. One of those feelings that I haven't caught since my last anxiety attack. It was horrible. I couldn't help myself. I started crying.
Then the bell rang. Thank god. I ran out of the classroom and I didn't even say a word to Jesse.
"IVY! Stop . I need to talk to you." He said worried. "Tell me what's wrong..please." It was weird, he seemed concerned.
"I'll tell you after school." I told him quietly.
"Alright, but after school we're going to get some jack, snacks, soda, and head to my place to watch a movie while you tell me what's wrong." I couldn't help but feel excited. Did he just invite me over to his place? Wow. I was excited.
After school, I saw Jesse waiting for me next to his Wrangler Jeep. Wow it was beautiful! And my favorite color! Black!!
"Ready?" He asked.
"Sure" I responded.
We were in his car. It smelled like cologne. But it smelled really good.
I couldn't help but notice that he stared at me with concern. He just kept staring .
"Eyes on the road pretty boy." I told him. "Hey stop saying that. I'm ugly , lol" he told me. But I know he was just playing dumb.
"Shut up, you're cute when you're worried." I can't believe I said that.
He smirked, and chuckled a bit. "Well you're not too bad yourself. You're beautiful actually..."
I blushed. I honestly didn't even care if he saw me. We were at the front of his house. I guess he was home alone since there were no cars around his house.
His house was huge. It was two stories tall and looked amazing. "Come in." He said opening the door. "Welcome to my humble home!" He yelled but it was cute.
"Thanks for inviting m-" I was cut of by him dragging me to a room. I guess it was his room. I mean there was a flatscreen, couches, and rock band posters!! Omg he had so many! My favorite one was the Nirvana poster! His room was beautiful! He had guitars on the walls and his it looked kind of dark.
He didn't have just any posters though. He had The Used, Blink-182 , Sum-41, Arctic Monkeys, Bring Me The Horizon, Pierce The Veil, My Chemical Romance, Black Veil Brides. HE HAD ALL MY FAVORITE BANDS! It was amazing! It was heaven for me!
"Yea..sorry about my room. I know, it looks scary. Not that many girls are intersected in my kind of music." He said. "Are you kidding me!? Shut up! You have all my favorite bands on your wall!! I love your room!" I said.
He smiled. And it made me feel happy, so I smiled too. "So can you tell me what's wrong now? Or do you want to eat first?" He asked me. "Why don't we do both?" I told him with a smile on my face.
"Okay now tell me. Why were you crying."
"Well , I just felt so alone yesterday. And this morning I just started crying out of no where. You know? It's just depressing old me getting out of control."
"So .. You just cried because you were depressed?"
"Yea,basically." I hesitated. "It's nothing. So don't worry." I felt my back hurt so I stood up and stretched for a while. And before I could say anything..he yelled.
"WHAT THE HELL!!?" And at that point. I knew he saw my bruises.
"Why do you have bruises on your stomach!? Who did this to you Ivy!? Tell me now!! WHO DID THIS TO YOU!?"
"If I tell you, you promise not to freak out!?"
"Promise." He said worried.
"It was Delijah and two of her friends. They dragged me into the girls locker room and started beating me up because I almost got Delijah out in dodgeball yesterday." I hesitated a bit, trying to explain everything.
Before I knew it..he grabbed my wrist and pulled up my sleeve. And there he was with his eyes in shock. He saw my cuts.
"Why? When? Where? How?" He kept asking.
"Just don't worry about it okay!?" I couldn't help but cry, and next thing I know..I was in his arms crying.
"Don't worry Ivy.. You're not alone. I promise I won't leave you. Ever."
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The Emo "Bad Boy" that stole my Heart.
Fiksi Remaja"I thought he was cute . Until I found out he was a complete jerk... But who knew that this complete jerk..can turn out to be my whole life."
