Random Scribbles

Silence all the Way.

Sometimes Silence speaks more than words. Sometimes it is more devastating than the sword. Hope that kind of Silence doesn't touch any of you ever.

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Silence all the way!

I can listen to you,
even when you're silent.
All day, all night, all my life.
The distance we have in between,
is silence until the end?
Your silence, which is towards me,
Is only for me.
I appreciate it though.
As that's the only thing you have,
Reserved for me.
Now I would love your Silence,
The way I'm in love with you.
I would be enchanted by it.
I would be bewildered.
Would sway my thoughts
As It would lead me into.
Your Silence is deadly as you say.
It silently hovers over me.
Seduces me to pain.
Lures me to succumb.
Ruins me to bits.
Hope you are enjoying this.
As this is your purpose now.
I would anticipate it Every day.
Would let it haunt me,
Until my loneliness becomes its muse.
Even if you don't want to make me one among many of yours.
How kind it would be,
For me to beg to end this here.
How cruel it would be,
For you to end this silence here.
The more silence prevails,
The better distance we have.
Now I can adore you from afar.
No permissions are needed.
No more requests or pleas.
It's just me and your silence now.
I do entertain it with my tears.
With my begging sometimes.
And the weapon used is ignorance.
To make me more comfortable,
With my loneliness.
My undeserved disparity.
For me to get used to and enjoy.
This pain makes me stronger.
I look out for you as usual.
But feel at home with your silence now.
I do hope someday, you are enlightened.
But how much more would you fight out?
Until the end of me or the end of this pain?
Or until the end of my existence in your life?
How much more would you use the same silence to harm me?
Until I make this hurt as mine?
And own it to be numb with wounds?
Or would you prefer to fake it?
As you always would do?
This silence is real for sure.
Unlike fake words, fake promises,
Fake moments and fake bonding.
At least this silence listens to me.
Is with me for every moment
I'm going through in pain.
With me relishing my downfall.
My sanity is constantly ambushed.
My worth is being erased.
And this silence continues to be with me.
Unlike the one who is supposed to,
This silence is my love now,
Accompanying me to my grave.

btsmania07

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Hello My Maniacs..
** How are you all doing? How was your weekend?
** Just got late with my updates here.
** probably I'll be back with my BTS smuts soon.
** For "Behind the Sins" probably will start working on that soon.
** Thanks for waiting for me though. I'll be back soon.
** Love you all for all the support and Borahae.

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