The poems of pain

I'm sorry! I'm losing!

I'm losing myself!
Who am i ?!
How am i ?!
Why am i ?!
Every day I'm asking myself
But i don't have the answers...
to this questions...
Eighteen years old
And i fell like my soul is broken!
My body is dying...
I'm dying !
I scream !
But who hears me?
Nobody !
Nobody hears me !
Nobody wants to hear me !
I want just one more hug :
From my death ...
A really big hug
That would kill me instantly...
No life ...No pain !
I am sick of pain!
It's too much !
I can't do this anymore...
I don't want to do this anymore!
I tried to be okay ....
I tried so much ...
I'm losing this fight ...
I'm sorry mom & dad !
I'm sorry my little brothers!
I'm sorry granny!
I'm sorry friend !
I'm losing myself and...
I love you all!