Life In High School

Chapter 2

I walked back to class to look for Savannah but couldn't find her anywhere <Where could she be> I thought to myself
I walked out of the classroom, heading to the library and I could hear whispers in low voices I went closer until I reached the door step… it wasn't my habit to listen to people's conversations out of the blue, but my curiosity wouldn't permit me this time

I suspected that Savannah was talking about me with her friends again, I wasn't sure but as I went closer I could hear more matured voice sounds like a conversation between teachers. I peeped in to see. And yes! It really was teachers having a conversation about the students’ performance… And it was Mr. Ray and Mrs. Mavis ~ the math and English teacher together with the literature teacher but she kept her cool and seemed busy on her PC as the two were talking

“Generally I think the students in the 8th grade did extremely well though, especially Savannah Mickelson but... Hannah” Mr. Ray said

“Oh well... Yes Hannah Mickelson is a case to handle but I can be proud to say she improves well this time though it's better than last term results” Mrs. Mavis told him

“I know, but she should do better, I mean her identical twin sister Savannah is doing tremendous and admirable works at least she should be like her, I wonder if Savannah doesn't help her at all” He said

“Of course she does, the principal has told her to be helping Hannah with studies according to my observation I believe Hannah is a slow learner” Mrs. Mavis replied

“But still!” Mr. Ray yelled

“Umm... I'm sorry can you please lower your voice, I'm working on a project” Miss Tasha said “By the ways she did well in literature too I'm sure she just needs time she'll improve in high school” She added

I couldn't continue listening... I was actually getting hurt, I might be a slow learner but why can't they just understand that I'm doing my level best and trying so hard to make them proud especially Mr. Ray, I had to pay close attention to savannah's tutoring and stay up late at night just to pass the math exams, I've just heard enough… I turned to continue my search for Savannah… just as I turned; I bumped into her and mistakenly hit her head

“What in the world-” She squealed in pain

“Shhhhhhhh” I hushed as she dusted herself and wiped off the sweat from her face

“What're you doing here Hannah?” she asked

“I've been looking for you for a while now” I said

“Well. I’m here now, what’s the problem?” she replied

“Mrs. Evans wants to see us so she asked me to call you” I said

“You can proceed; I'll meet you there” she said as she walked past me and entered the library… Why did she just change her attitude on me? I didn't even bother asking her anything; I found my way to Mrs. Evans section in the staffroom

“Ma'am, you called” I told her

“Oh yes I did, where's Hannah” she asked

“I'm Hannah I think you mean Savannah” I replied

“Oh my, I'm so sorry I still find it hard to differentiate between you two, forgive my manners” she pleaded 

“It's ok many teachers still can't differentiate us but we're totally different, it's just that we all wear glasses” I clarified

“Yes that's what makes it hard it'd be better if only one wore glasses” she said
Just then Savannah came in and stood far away from me

“Mrs. Evans you called for me?” she asked

“Yes yes, actually both you and Hannah, it's nothing serious... I just wanted to advise you both and encourage you to work harder in high school cause it's going to be harder and tougher there, And Savannah please help Hannah more, I understand you're trying but please try more” she advised

“Mrs. Evans I'm really and honestly trying but Hannah is not, I'm tired of getting blamed for her, she just is not ready to learn and there's nothing I can do about it!” Savannah said with frustration in her voice

I was baffled and completely shocked... I couldn't believe these words just came out from the mouth of my own twin sister... We were totally cool and were really close and fond of each other but at that moment … She acted as if we weren’t even related by blood

“Don't say that Savannah, don't just give up like that ... We all know Hannah is a slow learner so please practice more patience with her. She’ll improve with time and I’m very sure of it” Mrs. Evans said her

“It's ok Mrs. Evans I can take online tutoring during the holidays and prepare myself for high school, I'm sure I can improve” I told her

“You're already improving and I'm proud of you ok, I totally understand your point and yes I love the determination” Mrs. Evans replied

Savannah couldn't help but give me death stares. When Mrs. Evans was done with us she stormed out of the staffroom and I just took my time and walked out. I just couldn't understand what was happening and was honestly dumbfounded. Why did she walk away? … Why was she so mad at me? ....
I was just too stunned and had too many questions I had no answers to... I wished to talk to Jordan but he must be busy, he was like my favorites in the family even though we argue a lot deep inside he was more like me in a way, he also didn't perform well in school and got scolded by mom a lot

Yet still he continued playing basketball and also being a cool kid. I admired him so much but that was not the problem at hand all I could do was walk back to class and bow my head on my table and close my eyes because I was too numb to cry
Soon it was time to go home and I rushed to Jordan's car and met it open so I sat inside and closed the door once I entered, Jordan soon came in and sat at the driver's seat looked back at me and said: “What's wrong?, I've been looking for you and Savie, where is she? And why is your face so moody, what happened?” He asked

“Nothing, I'm fine just tired, I got my results today and I actually improved in English and literature but teachers are still not satisfied with my performance and Savie is mad at me” I told him

“I got mine too and trust me it might be worse than yours, don't mind it'll be fine ok as for Savie don't mind her... I'm sure it's her demons again” she said as he caressed my hair

Savannah arrived and sat down without saying a word... Jordan and I also pretended as if she never existed and throughout the journey home no one said a word and once we reached Nana Nora opened the gates and we got in I came down from the car and hugged her then rushed to my room, I quickly took a bath and got into my pajamas and lied down…. I felt bored and empty so I took my phone, played my sad songs playlist and closed my eyes…

Depression sank in again and I felt empty and lost. I remembered when I was much younger my mom used to say ‘when you’re feeling blue just close your eyes and talk to God, he has the answer to everything’… I gave it a try and indeed felt better
*Knock knock*
I opened my eyes and removed the ear pod in my left ear to confirm someone was really knocking, at this point I couldn’t really tell if it was just an imagination or reality

“Hannah dear, can we come in?” I heard dad say

“Yes sure, you can” I replied

He came into the room with mom and from the look on her face I couldn't really tell if she was mad or just kidding

“Sorry I didn't hear you guys knocking” I said

“How would you hear us when you have ear pods in your ears” mom complained

“we want to talk to you about your results” dad said

“They're improving bit by bit but you need to add more effort” she added

“Mom I'm trying, I'll try harder” I told her
“You did great sweetie your English and literature scores are cool so I'm sure you can do this” dad encouraged me

“Thanks dad” I said feeling relieved

“Stop spoiling this girl David, it's not helping why can't she just be like Savannah or even better than her because she's the older one” mom said

“Please go easy on her, she's human too” dad said
I got pretty offended by her words but there was nothing I can do but just accept it

“Mom and dad I promise I'll improve” I assured them

“You better do, it's for your own good” she said and left the room

“I believe in what you love, your mom is just worried and cares for you so don't think otherwise... sleep tight baby cup goodnight” he said kissing my forehead
“Thanks dad goodnight” I said to him as he left my room

I lied back down and was just tired of everything but I promised to make mom proud one day and I'd have to work extra hard for that… Dad always understands me and is always sweet; school was such a headache why do people judge others based on their academic performance
The holidays awaited me and I had a lot to do I closed my eyes and tried to sleep thinking of what would be of me (⁠~⁠_⁠~⁠;⁠)