Summer Love

four - wish that we could be alone now

"Blaine?" Kurt approached him after glee club ended.

"Hey, Kurt," he replied. Kurt took notice of Blaine's good mood because he got to do a lot of singing today. Kurt wasn't sure if his good mood would be a good or bad thing. Maybe he'll take the news better, but it could also be a further crash and burn.

"Do you think we could talk?"

"What about?" He had an idea of where this was going, but he could only hope he was wrong.

"Well, uh...maybe we could go to my house...to talk."

"Right. Yeah, sure."

Since meeting, Kurt and Blaine had never been awkward around each other, but they sat in awkward silence throughout the drive to Kurt's house.

It was only them at the house. His dad and Carole were at work. Finn went over to Rachel's, and Sam agreed to be out somewhere when Kurt asked for privacy. He didn't explain why, so Sam might be thinking something completely different is going down. But Kurt will tell him later.

"So, uh," Kurt started once they settled on the couch. They sat close but weren't touching. "I don't think we can keep doing this...I don't think I can keep doing this to you."

"This is about Sebastian, isn't it?" Blaine said glumly.

Kurt turned in his spot to face Blaine.

"You deserve the truth. Remember how I went to France the summer before we met?" Blaine nodded. "While I was there, I met someone. He was great, and we didn't spend much time apart during those two months. We hung out at his house or at my grandparents' place. We'd go out and explore the city and just be. It was really hard having to leave. And I was never quite able to get over him."

"He's Sebastian—the guy you met," Blaine asked, even though it came out as a statement.

Kurt nodded his head.

"And you still love him."

"I'm so sorry, Blaine. You're amazing..."

"Just not as amazing as Sebastian."

"Look, you're a great guy, and anyone would be lucky to have you-"

"Except you."

"I really do love you, Blaine. But if I'm going with the whole honesty thing, you two seemed so different. And I thought that...I thought if I was with someone, who was basically the opposite, I'd stop thinking about him. It wasn't my smartest idea. But I genuinely liked you and thought..."

"I get it. I'm not happy about it, but I get what you're saying. But you lied to me." Kurt tilted his head in confusion. "The whole Animal thing. You- I thought we were in the same position, Kurt."

"I'm sorry. I didn't want to keep it from you, but I didn't know how to explain everything. The only people that knew about Bastian were my grandparents and my dad."

"Why didn't you tell anyone?"

"It's nobody's business but my own. And everyone would probably think I made it up."

"So we're really over," Blaine frowned after a moment of silence.

"I'm sorry, Blaine. I didn't want to hurt you, but letting things stay like they are would only hurt everyone more."

"I understand, Kurt. Of course, I'm upset but...you didn't...do anything with him since he moved here, have you?"

"No," Kurt was quick to answer. "I couldn't do that to you. I'd never forgive myself if I did."

"Right. I should probably...head out."

"Do you want a ride home?"

"I think I'll just walk around for a bit."

"Right," Kurt let out a breath. "I'd understand if you don't want to but maybe we could stay friends?"

"I think I need some time."

"Of course."

"But in time, I think I'd like that. We were always great as friends."

Kurt smiled a little. "Can I get one last hug? It sounds like it'll be the last one for a while."

"Yeah."

They both stood up and hugged each other tightly. Blaine gave Kurt a kiss on the cheek as they pulled away.

"I'll...see you at school." Blaine began to see himself out.

"Blaine?" He turned around at the sound of his name. "Thank you for being so understanding."

"I love you, Kurt, and I know you didn't want to hurt me."

With that, he walked out of the Hummel house. He made it down the driveway before the tears began to fall. He didn't dare cry in front of Kurt. He wanted to be angry, but he saw how they looked at each other from the moment they rediscovered one another. Blaine tried to ignore it and convince himself he was imagining things. But he wasn't. He was just glad Kurt broke up with him before he decided to do anything with Sebastian. He was in pain now, but it would have been a lot worse if he found out he cheated.

Blaine was hurting and very sad, but he would be okay. Eventually, he and Kurt could be friends again. Not now, maybe not for a while. But one day, this would all be water under the bridge.