It's been years since the last time, I remember my heart beat so fast, the last time I become a total dopamine addict, the last time I smile when I'm holding someone's hand in mine, the last time...
Everything that happens, happened so fast like a lightning in the sky. We started the day with a hug and kiss on my temples, a sweet smile from her, and we even started bickering about some kinds of stuff that our unnies usually love watching...
I remember how she hold me and how she let go of my hand, I remember how she smiled and I cried as I watch her leave. Like the asteroid that crushes my world, i'm destroyed.
"Manchae what are you thinking?" Reality pull me out in the shallow when Yunjin-unnie tap my shoulder and ask me
"Just... Nevermind" I sigh knowing that they will never understand how highly I think of her.
"you're thinking about Garam again?" it's Zuha until I look at her and nod.
I never not thinking about you...
I shut my eyes as the extra pain fierce my heart and cut it into tiny pieces, I'm breathing but a big part of me had died when she left me...
"She's occupying my mind the whole time like she leaves no room for me to think about other kinds of stuff...she's all I can think about and I feel like I'm going crazy... I'm always wondering if she's okay. if she's eating her meal regularly if she's also missing me as I do..." I wipe my tears away that I didn't know I provided.
I didn't know that after all that happen between me and her just only one question will make me break down like I never did...
"Manchae-ah...It goes like this...People come and go that's the process" Chaewon unnie told me
Tell me something I don't know...
"I know unnie. I know once the person go and leave someone will definitely come" I keep on sobbing "But I don't want Garam-unnie to go. I don't want anyone to come if it's not Garam unnie" being hopelessly in love with one person that can't be with you hurts like a hundred daggers stabbed m heart.
