a year later...
"Baeee! Come hereee!" I said yelling out for Jariah. We were chilling in her dorm room. We were currently sophomores in college. All three of us got accepted into Morgan State University.
"What?" She said walking over to me.
"I love you." I said pulling her in by the waist to kiss her.
"I love you more." She said kissing me back.
"Oh my god. I don't know why the fuck I come over here if all y'all gone do is kiss and shit." Keem said making me suck my teeth.
"Nigga go home cause I'm tryna get some pussy." I said waving him off. He got up and pushed me.
"Don't say you tryna get some pussy like a hoe in yo class." She said mugging me.
"Tink you know i didn't mean it like that though." I said licking my lips.
"Y'all niggas make me sick." Keem said walking out the dorm. I grabbed her by her neck and started kissing on her.
"I can't." She said looking at me. I pulled away from her sucking my teeth. Me and Ja haven't had sex since last year we we made our relationship official.
"Whyyy?" I dragged out.
"On my period." She said sitting down on the couch, next to me.
"That don't stop nothing but the end of a sentence. We haven't fucked in a year." I said putting my head to the ceiling.
"Exactly. Which is why we can wait longer." Ja said walking to the bathroom to change her tampon. I followed her and stood in the doorway.
"What in the fuck Ja. You really not letting me fuck?" I asked her. She wiped herself and then changed her tampon.
"No, you can wait." She said making me suck by teeth.
"I thought you loved me man. You wouldn't let me suffer like this if you loved me." I said slugging over to her couch.
"I do love you. Just do what you been doing since?" She said flushing the toilet. She walked out and stood infront of me.
"I be beating my shit. I don't want to beat my meat if I got the real thing in front of me." I said rubbing on her ass.
"I know. But you know maybe it's not the right time to have sex." She said making me suck my teeth. I put my hands over my face and slid them down.
"Why you don't want to fuck me? And keep that shit a bean. Like what's up..." I said looking her up and down with a slight mug. "You fucking somebody else? That's why you don't want me to fuck? Huh?"
"I'm not even cheating on you. I would never cheat on somebody. I just don't want to fuck you after you fucked her." She said looking at me.
"Jariah. Come on foo. Bae I haven't talked to that bitch since the day you beat her up. Like what the fuck. Why would you ever think I would want to talk to her ugly ass again?"
"I don't know. I know I was supposed to let it go but it's like I can't stop thinking about it. The video I saw, it just make it seem like you wish it was her you want to fuck instead of me." She said looking down at her feet, avoiding eye contact with me.
"Ja. Why the fuck would you think that?" I asked looking at her with a 'are you dumb' face.
"Cause I'm fat and she's skinny. And she's better looking than me. Like she's way better than me than at everything and you chose to come back home to me. And it just makes me feel so weird that you, the finest dude i've ever met, went for a fat ass girl like me like what the fuck." Ja vented out. I sucked my teeth and started tapping my leg in order to go off. She started crying and I got up and stood in the corner away from her.
"Jariah. I'ma tell you this one time and one time only, ight? Stop fucking talking bout to' self like you don't fucking matter. Like this shit dead ass pissing me off. Nigga, If i didn't want you, I wouldn't fucking be with you. If I wanted her, I would be with her. I don't think about that bitch. I don't how many times I tell you this but you're the best person that happened to me. I don't want a skinny bitch. I want you. I want somebody that's gone suffocate me. I want somebody that got meat in that bones. And bae. That bitch ugly as fuck. And I told you I was high and that I felt guilty the whole time. I'm sorry! Okay? I'm fucking sorry. Like am I the reason you feeling like this?" I said venting. She took a seat on the couch. Tears started streaming down her face but she wasn't making any noise.
"No. It's just the fact that you fucked her and then she threw that shit back up in my face in front of everybody. And then she started pointing out my insecurities. Like that shit's embarrassing." Jariah said crying. She was choking over her words. I took a deep breath and sighed before going off.
"So you don't want to fuck me because you think I want somebody I fucked when I was fucked up? and immediately felt guilty after? and i told you the next day? That's what you telling me Ja? You're telling me that you don't want to fuck me because she pointed out your insecurities a year a-fucking-go? Like what the fuck. What's gone make you better? Me killing this bitch? Me beating this bitch ass? You want me to go all the way back to Atlanta and beat this bitch ass so I can prove I don't want her and I only want you even though I tell you and I show you everyday that I love you more than anything in this fucking world?!" I said yelling at this point.
"No, I'm sorry. I just- I'm sorry." She said crying full blown tears. I sucked my teeth and avoided eye contact. I approached and pulled her off the couch.
"Stop crying bro. I hate seeing that shit." I said hugging her. She kept sobbing on my hoodie. I just rubbed her head and let her cry it out. I tried not to look at her cause seeing her cry made my heart break.
