Snow Ghost [Jaime Lannister]

Chapter XVII. Long May She Reign

In Dondarrion camp, Lyonel tent. the huge smoke still going outside Harrenhall. I sit next to Lyonel's body and stare at Jaime "He is a traitor, he betrayed me, I was wrong. And I love you, Jaime. I always have" Jaime leans his head softly and I wipe my tears "Always."

"Lyanna, we__" The men get in and take Lyonel. Jaime helps me to stand.

"I've been alone. You abandoned me."

"I spared you. You were in danger."

I argue "Yes. Yes, I was in danger. And look at what my life became without you"

"Cersei needed me after you killed our father"

I cry "My son died, our and you did not believe me, she did this" Tears fall "he died" sniff "I just do not want to feel it. I do not think I can. I do not even want to believe it"

Jaime sighs "Everything was ruined when Jon was murdered"

I angrily "What about me?" tears in my eyes "What about me when you go for her?" shrug "You are okay" tears fall "You are fine" cry with a shrug and shout "But What about me?"

"Lyanna, please"

I cry more "So you did for your house" cry "I killed him for revenge. I betrayed my family for you" I shrug and cry "You did it for yourself so do not blame me" I plead "Enough, please"

Jamie shouts "You died in my arms. you fucking died in my arms. And I could not save you. you want to know why I left you" I stare at him "The high sparrow was going to seize you and drag you like whore as they did for Cersei. For that I told you never come back" tears in his eyes "My four boys died, Lyanna" I wipe my tears "I am scared" shouts "I am scared of everything. I am scared to move. I am scared to breathe. I am scared to touch you. I can not lose you. I want survive and that's your fault"

I wonder "My fault?"

Jaime sighs "Can we back to the castle"

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In Harrenhall, I and Jaime walk towards Harrenhall gate, he wears a cloak not letting anyone recognize him. Jaime says "You with child" giving me a look to look at my small belly "Dondarrion?"

I put my hand on my belly and rub it "I am thirteen weeks"

The people are cleaning the fire mess. Jaime asks "The place did not burn"  

I answer "Of course, it did not" Jaime gives me a look and we get in the gate "We have dug a ditch around the whole castle and thrown a wildfyre so that everyone thinks it is the castle that is burning"

We get into the castle. Genna runs taking me between her arms "Lyanna"

I widen my eyes "Aunt Genna, there babe inside, you crashing me"

Genna widens her eyes "Babe"

I smile "Long story"