smoke oxygen.

It's not like...

I was sitting in the corner of the room,

Pretending to text so I could avoid you,

I could see you cozying up in her arms.

I don't know if you noticed me,

Or you did and pretended you didn't see,

I miss the days when it was me falling for your charms.

It's not like this hasn't happened to me before,

So why is it hurting ten times more now?

I could count on you to make me feel at home and even more,

I could count on you to hold me down in the crowd.

You were my love,

Now the angels cry rain down on us from up above,

It's not like this hasn't really happened to me before.

I did my best to hide from your gaze,

I didn't want to risk it and reminisce about all of the days,

You were my love, my home, my only one.

I don't know if you saw me from the corner of your eye,

I was jealous and to hide it, I didn't try,

Do you realise how your smallest stares do me undone?

It's not like I've never had my heart broken before,

Why does it feel like it'll never get back together this time?

You were always there knocking, almost breaking my door,

The silence stops me from screaming at your face that I'm doing just fine.

You were the one,

Now I stand here hoping you don't see me as if the earth never sees the sun.

You know I've had my heart broken before.

We both know I can't really do this anymore.

Your hand's on her thigh now,

Giving her warmth like when it was mine,

And you whisper jokes in her ear,

While she giggles and I just try to hide, convincing myself that I'm totally fine.

I let out an audible gasp,

I try to speak but I know it's going to crack,

I know what you whispered, you don't have to hide,

Not like me, I'm dying on the inside.

It's not like I wanted to leave,

I needed to, I needed time to grieve,

I ran out of the room, you know it's true,

All because I couldn't bear to see her with you.

You were the sun,

And all the constellations, I would die to be your sky,

You know I didn't want to leave,

You still have my heart, it's on your sleeve.

It's not like this hasn't happened to me before,

So what if I got my heart broken, add one more to the score.

It's not like I wanted to leave,

It's not your fault truly that I was aggrieved.

I'm happy you found someone,

And I hope that counts for something,

You know I ended up running out the door,

It's not like you haven't ever seen me do that before.