Ruthless love

A Touch of Fate

I was drifting in and out of consciousness, oblivious to the conversation that was currently going on in the meeting room.

I was in a feverish state, my body aching and trembling with cold sweat covering every part of me, leaving me feeling cold and clammy.

I had given up on making sense of the visions that had come to me earlier that night and instead fought to collect my thoughts on something else to be distracted from the reality that really did not make much sense to me at this point.

I recalled how I left home, with the village chasing after me like I was running straight to my death - which in hindsight I suppose I was, only I didn't realize or really care back then.

Some time had passed since I left and I felt that my recklessness in that regard had significantly decreased.

I scolded myself mentally for not thinking twice about this decision, for not staying in the village with my family and for not staying with Ara.

"Ara..." I whispered, tears forming in the corners of my eyes at the thought of my sister being left behind, simply because I was too blinded by curiosity to see what really mattered.

I would have killed for her to be there with me.

Well perhaps not, but then again, what did I have to lose at this point?

I sat up slightly in the bed as my eyes drifted around the room, admiring the beautiful surroundings.

It was like something out of a fairytale book and it made me feel so much at ease.

If I was really going to die, this was the place to do it, I thought to myself.

I grunted and shook my head in response to my own thoughts.

"How can you even think that.." I muttered quietly to myself, slightly ashamed that I seemed to have given up on even trying to survive for a moment.

I had come so far and yet I still had so much to see, to do, to experience and live to tell about.

I had never even gotten married, had children of my own - although these thoughts still seemed a little too far fetched for me, it made me sad to think that I had not even accomplished that much in life.

It was not like I was too young for these things anymore, although the thought of it had not crossed my mind before.

At least not seriously.

Sometimes I did imagine what my future family would look like and how I would be as a wife, a mother, perhaps even grandmother.

Family had always been important to me, despite me not having much of it.

I let the thoughts settle in my head for a bit before sitting up.

I had made up my mind. I was not ready to die and I sure as hell was not gonna lay there and wait for it to happen.

I decided that I was going to find out what happened to me, even if that meant going back to the place where the visions had happened.

I needed to know if something could be done, and if that was the only way for me to learn the truth, I was okay with it.

It was not like my situation could get much worse as it was.

Like a deer walking for the first time, I slowly got myself propped up onto my feet and slowly and very unsurely made my way to the door, trying not to fall flat on my face in the process.

When I got to the door and turned the handle, it opened outwards before I could manage to push against it, causing me to lose balance and fall over.

A pair of strong arms caught me just in time before I hit the floor and I heard a familiar voice scold me quietly.