MADHOUSE || PJM

#53

i stare through the window as i see trees and houses passing by, the window slightly opened making my hair fly back as the air caresses my skin.

it's incredible how much has happened in just a few months.

i think back to how everything started, how i wanted to end my life that night on the rooftop not knowing anything at all, how jimin stopped me, how slowly but surely i started developing feelings for him, even though i always knew he was hiding big secrets.

how yoongi was able to manipulate the whole situation perfectly, making me doubt everyone around me, only to twist it all around and come out as my killer, keeping me as a prisoner in his house.

how taehyung told me they were all together in this, how i hated them for it.

but what's ironic, is that i doubted everyone around me, except the closest person to me.

myself.

finding out the truth has been so liberating. i'm not scared anymore, i don't wake up in the middle of the night with terrifying nightmares. i've come to accept what i've done, i don't hate them anymore for what they've done.

right now, they are the people i trust most.

knowing that all the tears i cried, all the pain i've been through, has only been because they were trying to protect me from myself, strengthens my gratitude for what they've done.

yes, they've done it in the most messed up ways possible, but that's how they are. they're messed up, dark, twisted and i love it.

oh gosh, i'm definitely becoming like them.

taehyung is the only one who can bring us some sanity now.

talking about taehyung, i'm especially thankful to him. this whole situation has affected him the most, yet he has done everything before of me. for me.

when he learned about my past with jimin, it took him a while but he accepted our feelings, he accepted what we both meant for each other and acknowledged his past mistakes.

he understood that my true happiness has always belonged to jimin, from the very start.

my eyes find him, who is focused on driving, his eyes on the road. i watch his defined profile as his hair ruffles with the wind, his strong jawline, his plump lips and his cute nose.

i still can't believe he was that little boy, the boy with whom i used to find escape in, with whom i used to find happiness in the middle of so much despair.

the boy who, before i knew it, became my first love, and now has become my darkest obsession.

his eyes suddenly turn to look at me, a smile lifting his lips as he catches me staring.
"what are you thinking of?"

my lips say it before i can stop myself.
"that i love you."

his smile suddenly disappears, his expression becoming serious, and i watch as he pulls off the road stopping the car.

i okay with my hands nervously.
"why.. did you stop?"

his eyes meet mine again, and not giving me enough time to process it, he takes my face and stomps his lips on mine.
he pushes me back against the seat from the force of the kiss, his mouth moving desperately with mine.

i take his hair, brining him closer and responding the kiss with the same need.

our breathing gets accelerated and i hear him whisper.
"how do you expect me not to stop and kiss you after hearing what you said?"

my heart stopped, smiling against his lips. he takes my face softly, staring at me closely before leaving a gentle kiss on my lips, and speaking again.
"im crazy for you, y/n. i love you more than anything in this world."

my heart beats uncontrollably as i feel tears of happiness threatening to come out but i kiss him again, losing myself in him, in the boy who brought me to the darkness but who also brightened up my whole world.

-

when we got him, we hear screams and noises coming from the house as we get out of the car.
i look at jimin confused.

"is yoongi having fun this early in the morning?"

suddenly, taehyung comes out and when he sees us, he comes running to us, holding onto jimin's arm.
"please help me! he's going to kill me!"

now jimin looks confused.
"what are you talking abo-"

he gets cut off by yoongi who appears by the door, looking extremely angry.

"oh.. don't tell me you woke him up this early?"
jimin sighs and taehyung's terrified expression just confirms it.
"sorry man, but you can't mess with yoongi's sleep."

yoongi starts running towards taehyung and he quickly runs away while screaming and begging for yoongi to forgive him.

i look at the situation with my eyes wide open.
"he's not really going to kill him.. is he?"

jimin smiles.
"with yoongi, you never know."

"what?!"

he laughs.
"just kidding, he's just messing around."

i can't help but smile, taehyung running away terrified as yoongi runs after him, every possible cursing word coming out of his mouth.

this is my family now. this is my home now.

jimin ruffles my hair as he leans closer to my ear and whispers.
"welcome to our madhouse, y/n."