Addiction| 18+

4|reception

.Hayley.

I looked at the priest with big eyes as I realized this man is gonna have to kiss me to convince this crowd that we are actually in love. My heart started to pound against my chest as I looked back at Grey who was suddenly way to close to me. Air was caught in my throat when he took my hip in one hand and the other one on my chin so I could meet his gaze.

A tear fell down as I tried to think of what to do. I couldn't do anything. I'm not in control, he is. Grey moved his hand off my hip as he wiped away the tear. I closed my eyes trying to find a different place, a place where I would be free from this life.

And just like that, the crowd was cheering and clapping their hands as I felt a wet kiss being placed on my cheek. The cheek that was facing the crowed. It felt like a life time before Grey pulled back and allowed me to breathe. I looked back at the millions of people who were standing and clapping.

I did it, it's over. My eyes land on my mother who was standing in the front row with tears down her face while she was clapping. I had no idea she was here, Warren said they where in Mexico.

I get side tracked as I turned back to Grey's stance as he looked out and into the crowd. He wasn't smiling, or crying this was just another one of his accomplish ments that he should be proud of.

A new wave of tears formed in my eyes as I began to walk down the aisle. My legs felt like jello as this man next to me held onto my arm.

At the end of the crowd I see a small elegant woman wearing a light pink dress. Letting go of Grey I ran to her, I need to talk to my mom one last time before I left.

"You did amazing, i'm so proud of you and the little woman you've grown up to be," she said with her strong accent. I nodded showing her a small smile.

"How are you here? Warren said you were in Mexico," I said curiously.

"Well, we where able to come back early just in time for your big day," she said trying to give me a hug. I stepped back slowly. "We?" I questioned as I looked around in the crowd.

"Well yes, your father and I," my eyes scanned the crowd until my heart dropped. The room goes quiet as I see the outline of my father talking to someone in the far left corner of the room.

"Excuse me, I-I need to go to the bathroom," I quickly said as I ran as fast as I could. Tears started to pour out of my eyes as I wiped them away trying not to cause any unnecessary attention.

I can't do this, I can't see him, I can't be in the same room as him, I won't.

My breathing gets worse as I sat down on the cold floor by the end of a hallway. My whole body began to shake. Fear rushes over me as I think back to the last time I saw him.

It was the day after my 18 birthday. I was in my room listening to music, while reading a book i'd just started. It took only minutes before the screams and cries for help started to echo off the walls in my bedroom.

"Hayley, breathe, you need to breathe." I hear as I look up to see Rebecca kneeling down. I knew I could not tell her a thing so I just cried and if she asked me why I would just say I was nervous to get married. I felt her hands start to rub up and down my back. "I-I cant, I cant do this" I said as I buried my face into her chest. "I know shhhh," she said as she pulled me into a hug. I cried into her shoulder until I started to calm down.

***

"T-thank you", I said as I grabbed a tissue from her hand.

She smiled showing her dimples,"I know what it feels like to panic. Everything will be okay," I nodded smiling back. I tried not to show doubt in my smile. Nothing could stop my father from what he wants.