Addiction| 18+

9|lastnight

  .Hayley.

Puke was the only word that ran through my mind as I looked down at my floor, covered in it. I held my head up trying to make the pounding in my head stop but the smell got worse, I could feel myself about to puke again if I didn't move so I quickly ran to the shower. I stripped off whatever clothes I had on and turned the shower handle all the way to left. Quickly, I started to feel the burning drops of water touch my skin.

Memories started to flood though my brain as I began to recall the events from last night. I frantically looked down at my arms that where covered in stitches. All of the slits and tears I made where gone and covered by tiny pieces of thread. Grey, he did this? I called him?

My heart starts to race as I realized I called him. He helped me, a cruel man. I gasped as more flashbacks from last night raced through my head. How am I supposed to look or even speak to him again after this? The thought made me want to put a bullet between my eyes, immediately.

I sat there, in the shower for what seemed like forever until I could no longer feel my bare bottom. I threw back on the clothes I had on two days ago not even daring to look at myself in the mirror. That's how disgusted I was with myself. I remember asking him to sleep in my bed. Is he still in my room? I slowly pened my door and to my surprise there he was on the edge of my bed. His eyes were plastered to his phone like he was typing something important like an email?...

I slowly closed the door behind me. I was unsure of what to even say to him. What happened last night was the worst I have ever been and to know that he saw that side of me scared the living day lights out of me.

I'm assuming Grey felt my eyes on him since he peeled his eyes off his screen. I could now see his eyes so I now had the opportunity to see how he was feeling. His eyes where something I could stare at forever, the swirls of different shades of grey was memorizing. But to my luck, I couldn't read him for the life of me. He put his phone down and scooted more on to the bed.

"Come here," he asked.

I did as he said and motioned my way to him. I could tell that he was trying to search my face of how I was feeling as well. Which honestly had to of been pretty easy.

"Give me your hands." I gave them to him and slowly placed my hands in front of him. He gently grabbed them and tugged on my arms to come closer. I shifted even closer to him. I was now in-between his legs, still staring into his eyes.

He continued to roll up my sleeves and slowly guide his thumbs over the stitches. For the first time I could finally read him. It was only for a split second but I could tell he was feeling some sort of regret.

His eyes flicker to mine. "Im going to get you all of the help that I can get you. I'm sorry. I should've been here for you."

I could see the hurt in his eyes as his eyes flickered back down to my wrists. I felt like a terrible person so I did what I did best I cried. Once he saw the tears he pulled me into his embrace. I cried for what seemed like forever. I couldn't wrap my head around about how bad I've gotten. After a while I had no more tears left to cry. So now he was just holding me as I dug my face into his shirt. I could feel his hand rubbing up and down my back as I way to calm me down, and it worked. For some reason his touch gave me comfort and was able to calm me down.

"H-how are you going to help me," I asked.

"Im going to start by taking you to see a doctor," he said. I nodded into his shoulder. Doctors weren't my favorite people in the whole world. But I knew I didn't have a choice. I need to know what's wrong with me.

"When are we going?"

Grey removed one of his hands off my back causing me to peek to see what he's doing. He was checking his watch for the time. "We need to leave in five minutes," he said as he moved his other hand to grab his phone. I took that as my sign to unwrap my arms around him and get ready to leave.

We both got up and headed downstairs to leave.

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End of chapter 9!

This chapter is short because I wanted one whole chapter to be about her trip to the doctor.