Océane's Eyes

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"now that is hot" Drea comments on the blue bikini I chose off the rack. I look at myself in the mirror, maybe the scars weren't noticable. We both decided to go bikini shopping for the pool party after school. Reggie didn't make it sound like a party, he made it sound like a hang out but its too late to back out now.

I don't bother trying on other ones cause the way Drea looks at me makes me feel a little akward. She takes in every detail staring for a long time. I'll have to call her name like two times before she finally says " it's nice."

Do I have a chocolate cake on my head or I'm I made of chocolate cake? I pack up the blue bikini after paying for it. People expect my favourite color to be blue cause of my name

How cliche

No, it's purple, blue is a close second. Sometimes I feel I'm just lying to myself about liking purple more than blue just to break the stereotype or prove them wrong but oh well. The blue bikini is just the best fit.

We walk out of the store and get into her car. I had already told mum that Drea and I would be going shopping. I also told her about the pool "hangout". She was hesitant about it. Glad I didn't tell her it was actually a party. But she concluded after the court trial, I deserved it.

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Drea pokes her froyo with the tiny spoon that comes with it. She doesn't know how to hide it when something is wrong. And she doesn't want to hide it.

I consider asking her but do I really want to know?

"You guys have been so distant lately" she blurts out still poking her yogurt. "I feel like I'm loosing the both of you"

"Reggie and I? Nooo. Drea we are here for you"

Drea hardly has baggage, you know, shit to worry about. Like Reggie's parents divorce and my...

"My parents aren't taking the whole gay stuff well."

Okay, I need to stop assuming.

Now I feel so bad, we haven't even been there for Drea and I guess she does know how to act like nothing is wrong.

"Why didn't you tell us?" I say. I place my hand over hers and that's when she looks up, intensely into my eyes.

"You guys are the only two friends I have and you both are slipping away. Did I do something wrong?" She asks, I can hear the hurt in her voice. She was right, we have been so caught up in our shit and we assumed Drea just "wouldn't understand" and now she needs us and we aren't here.

"I am sooo sorry Drea. I didn't know thats how you felt but now that I do, I'm here. We are, well Reggie isn't HERE but he's here too" I say and we both laugh.

"To think you and I were best friends before Reggie came, now I'm the addition" her eyes are back down.

"No you aren't. Everyone knows that legit female bestfriends are there forever".

She smiles at me and places her second hand above mine.

"And don't worry about your parents they just need time. How can they disown their super talented super smart super pretty daughter." She laughs.

It's true, if I had a daughter like Drea I'd be soo proud and guaranteed of her future, she has her shit together. I feel like she doesn't even need parents sometimes.

"There is this one girl I like" Drea says, her eyes on her yogurt, blushing.

Oooooh

I remember when we were younger and almost all the guys in class had a crush on Drea, she was so unbothered. I thought it was pride. Everyone thought she was mean for turning all the boys down in a harsh way. When she came out it all made sense.