The Runaway

As a family

Oh my god

When the nurse told me I had cancer that was all I was thinking 'oh my god' it's the reason I have been feeling real sick lately and my poor baby boy had to see me like that he had to see his mother lying on the floor with a pool of blood around her from my bleeding nose

I need to see him I need to let him know I'm ok and just as I was thinking about my little boy he comes running in the room with Zac right behind him

"Baby" I say holding out my arms to pull him up onto the hospital bed and once I did I gave him the biggest cuddle ever

"I missed you mummy" he mumbles into my neck with his arms wrapped around me

"I missed you to little man" I say giving him a kiss and letting a tear slip down my face I know I haven't been in here that long but I really missed my little man

He unwrapped his arms from around my neck but snuggled in with me under my arm

"Mummy what wrong?" He asks wiping my tears from my face with his little hands

"Nothing baby mummy's just not well" I say letting another tear slip down my cheek

How are you meant to tell your little boy that his mummy has cancer and might not make it through it how do you tell him that you might not be there for his first kiss, his first girlfriend, him getting married, how do you tell him that his mummy might not be there for his first day of school and to watch him grow up

"Plewse don't cry mummy" William says crying and wrapping his arms around my neck once again

The nurse walks into the room and clears her throat so I notice that she's there and to get my attention

"I'm hear to talk to you about the best treatment for well I think you know what for" I'm so so glad that she didn't say the word 'cancer' because Williams in the room even though he doesn't know what it is we don't want him repeating to his kindergarten friends that his mummy has cancer

"So what's the best treatment?" I ask

"It would probably have to be cemo, now the side affects of this is that you will lose your hair which is like your eyelashes and eyebrows to but I can assure you that it will all be worth it" the kind nurse says giving me a small smile that I returned

"I'll try anything" I say hugging my baby close in my arms

"We will start right away" she says walking out if the room

"Babe don't stress it we can look into wigs and you can get fake eyelashes it will be fine I promise and me and William will be right here by your side the whole way I promise" Zac says

"Don't make promises you can't keep zac" i say looking at him

"But I know everything will be okay rosie"

"You don't know that Zac!" I yell and william starts to cry again

"Shhh baby I'm sorry I didn't mean to yell mummy's just upset" I whisper in Williams ear when he has his head buried into my neck I pull the fingers at Zac and stick out my tongue while scrunching up my nose he just shakes his head at me giving off a chuckle letting the little argument slide

William stopped crying and I turned my head to the side and saw that he was sound asleep in my arms

"I'm gonna loose all my hair" I sigh looking down

"Babe no matter what you will look gorgeous" he says grabbing my chin pulling it up so I'm looking into his eyes and he leans down and gives me a kiss which I gladly return

"Babe I'm so scarred" I let out a sob and he just comes over to me and sits down on the bed next to me and pulls me close being careful because of William on my other side

"We're gonna get through this as a family Rosie don't you worry"