The Runaway

Eyelashes

I was lying in bed as it was 2am when I felt vomit coming up my throat I quickly shot up and out of bed and just made it to the toilet in time as I spilled all my guts out into the toilet.

I hated vomiting and I mean HATE it with a strong passion the last time I vomited was probably when I was pregnant with William but that was worth it because I got something out of it but this ,this sucks because I get nothing out of it just the joys of throwing up.

I'm slowly losing more hair every day and to tell you the truth it sucks, I try and cover it up the best I can by wearing my new beanies that i Brought a couple days ago and putting in my new extensions so you can't tell anythings wrong with me except my face is really pale and slim as I'm losing weight everywhere as I'm not eating as much because of the medication I'm on.

Every time I try to lift something heavy Zac will come and do it for me when I can do it myself I feel like everyone around me just sees me as a fragile little girl that can brake any moment the only person that treats me the same these days is lola and I love her for it she's honestly my hero her and my little boy I don't know what I would do with out them

Zac's amazing to don't get me wrong it's just that he treats me like I'm a fragile bit of glass that can brake at any moment he has his days when he acts normally around me but most of the time he won't even give me a tight hug and hold me close cause he's scarred I'm gonna brake

And to be honest I'm starting to believe it, I could brake at any moment and know body knows when, not me ,not Zac ,not lola nobody

Once I've finished throwing up I jump into the shower and wash my hair once I'm done I jump out and put on my yoga pants with a tank top I brush my teeth and take my meds

It's now 7am so I go and get William who is wide wake in his cot I pick him up and put him on my hip he's getting so heavy I don't think I'll be able to lift him soon or maybe it's the fact that I'm getting weaker

I take William down to the kitchen and serve him some Cereal by the times he's done Zac is down stairs showered and dressed

"Hey babe" he says coming over to me and snaking his hands around my waist putting his head on my shoulder

"You ready to go" I ask turning around and giving him a kiss

"Yup lets go" he says letting go of me and putting Williams coat and shoes on, I grab my purse and we head to the car and drive into town

Once we have found a park we jump out and go into the shop.

Today I'm getting fake eyelashes and I can't wait "hey can I help you" the lady at the counter asks

"Yea I've got an appointment under Rosie" i say giving her a small smile

"Right this way" she says walking over to a table with a mirror on it I sit in the chair in front of the mirror and wait while she gets her stuff ready

Once she's done they look amazing I'm so happy at how they turned out there so long!

I thank the lady and pay her then we all walk out to the car and I buckle William in and we drive off to get some subway